The world is just awesome!

2012-01-17T00:09:00.000-08:00

I just wrote my heart out and it's gone.

I never wrote anything that serious.

I literally poured my heart out and IT'S FUCKING GONE.

AND I CAN'T FUCKING WRITE EVERYTHING BACK.

FUCK THIS SHIT. FUCK MY LIFE.

2012-01-10T18:17:00.001-08:00

jarang aku nak terasa.
especially bende yg remeh temeh.

but disebabkan hormone x stabil *sebab aku baru start work out balik kut (bley terima x alasan. lol), walaupun bende tu kalau aku cakap, mesti orang cakap "x make sense ko nak terasa" but yes, aku terasa.

sekian.

p.s: baru found out aku senang nk cool down pas exercise rupenye. lol

2011-12-13T18:02:00.000-08:00

1st subject yg dh keluar result: Fluid and heat transfer.

I really don't know patut rasa ape skrang ni

kalau dh memang kurang bijak tu, memang kurang bijak la jugak kan.

final week

2011-12-13T11:53:00.000-08:00

seminggu jer lg, nk habiskan sem Fall '11 nih.

5 semesters down, 3 more to go.
meme ni summarized sem kali nih. lol

On the bright side, less than a week to SF-LA-LV trip! weehoo!

2011-11-22T17:58:00.000-08:00

There are times where I don't give a fuck about money.
When that time comes, I'll spend them like, well, I don't give a fuck.
even though I'm not supposed to do that.
especially when I'm hungry(buy lots of food)
or stress(buy unnecessary stuff like an aquarium. yes, I was so stressed out at the time I bought it).

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*kais kais

rezeki

2011-11-19T17:58:00.000-08:00

rezeki orang lain2.
sometimes I won't get what I want but still, I have everything that I need.
food, shelter, clothes, etc.
sometimes kne ingatkan diri sendiri pasal ni.

I admit, kadang2 jealous tgk kawan yg banyak duit.
pakai beli jer ape yang diorang nak.
boleh pegi ke mana sahaja yang diorang nak.
while for me, I can't get both.
keje part time dining tu xla seberapa.
cukup nak tampung cost nk g trip masa cuti panjang jer.
I don't want to trouble my parents. sekali dua jer.
tu pun kalau boleh, nak elak. xnak ketuk parents dah.

so, banyak2 bersabar yer aini. xde rezeki nak pegi snowboarding, xde rezeki nak shopping black friday.
InsyaAllah, snowboarding tu nanti merasa jugak sebelum grad then balik mesia for good. shopping tu bile2 pun boleh buat.
kite chill, makan tdo jer. wokeh? *gila cakap ngan diri sendiri. =.="

koreanized

2011-11-11T20:11:00.000-08:00

fine, I'll admit it. I think I've been 'koreanized'. lol
but so far, cuma layan lagu jer. drama or filem, blum lagi.
kalau tgk pun sebab ader actor that I love.
bile ingat balik, aku start suker korea sbb the guys in it. lol.
so, secara random saye nak cakap pasal lelaki korea yang pernah bertakhta di hati ini. echewah.

so, first stop: Kim Jae Wook

Kenal mamat ni from Marry Me Mary. My first korean drama, ever. tu pun setelah Al bising2 suruh aku tgk sbb cite ni best. and poof, aku jatuh cinta kat mamat nih. kalau x, xde nyer aku nk tgk habis cite tu. lols. lagipun xde bnde lain nk buat masa winter break.

Next: Han Kyung from Super Junior

Ni x ingat la kenape aku tiba2 suker. Masa budak2 ni bising2 pasal Super Junior (masa freshmen kalau x silap) and kononyer kne pick sorang dr group tu. I chose this guy. lol. tapi skrang kalau suruh aku choose, I'll choose Siwon or Donghae.

Next: Yunho from TVXQ.

mamat ni bile dia pakai suit and rambut dia camtu, fuh. fuh fuh.
smart oh. lagi dalam 'Keep Your Head Down' nyer MV. *pengsan.

Neexxxtttt: yang paling latest and yang paling aku angau2 kan pada masa kini

Choi Seung Hyun aka TOP from BigBang

disebabkan mamat ni sangat hot, saye post banyak sket gamba beliau. lol

*pengsan

mamat ni sebenarnyer tahap kehenseman beliau biasa2 jer. ok tipu. pada aku tahap luar biasa. LOL. pandangan beliau akan berjaya menambat hati mana2 gadis yang dia pandang. kalau x semua pun, maybe aku jer kut. lol. echewah.
serius oh. aku rasa kalau dia lalu depan aku, pandang aku, secara automatic aku pengsan. cam gamba kat bawah nih.

shoot. menusuk kalbu duh. huargh.

p.s: x semua image diorang aku suker. cam Kim Jae Wook tu, aku suker imej dia dlm Marry Me Mary jer. Yunho dlm MV Keep your Head Down and Han Kyung dalam MV Super Girl. But T.O.P is an exception. dia pakai gaya ape pun, dia tetap berjaya buat aku pengsan. LOL

mood putus cinta x pasal2.

2011-10-29T01:41:00.000-07:00

first, kter layan lagu ni dulu. lols

sedih la lagu nih. sobs.
x tau kenape aku sedih. nk kata aku sedih sbb tringat relationship aku dulu tu, mmg x la. LOL
ni cam, random2 feeling putus cinta.
diorang cam comel jer, couple.
pastu maybe dah bosan or something. diorg love each other jer lagi, tp cam, sparks tu dh xder kut
echewah, aper yg aku ckp nih.
tapi seyes feeling oh.
part yg dia cam, flashback. aawww, comelnyew :3

p.s: sok nk terjun nih, shit bricks aku. lol

most fucked up music video I've ever seen.

2011-10-21T02:19:00.000-07:00

I'm a huge fan of Jay-Z.

but this music video is really disturbing.
everything about this video is wrong.
EVERYTHING.
filled with illuminati-stuff -> if you would like to say that

O.O
absolutely mindfuck after I watched this.

angin bertiup sepoi2 bahasa

2011-10-20T11:13:00.000-07:00

pokok xkan bergoyang kalau xder angin yg tiup.
instead of marah pokok tu sbb dia goyang, cuba cari mna dtg angin tu.

semula jadi kee
ader ribut keeee
ader org letak kipas keee
ader org duk goncang pokok tu kt bawah keee
ader lembu duk sondol2 pokok tu keeee

ok, dh merapek.

but, you get what I mean, kan?

emo moment

2011-10-17T21:44:00.000-07:00

dh la mmg that time of the month ntuk aku meng-emo.
no, bkn pms. aku pun x tau kt stage mna ni.
tp yg penting aku annoyed.
ngan sumer bnde pulok tuh.

Blueberry II ngan Pinkberry mkn x habis aku nk marah.
hoi, mahal tau x flakes tu. makan. kalau x nanti kotor la air tuh.

ngan malas cam hapernyer.
study malas. buat homework malas.
annoyed ngan diri sendiri. ergh.

keep track

2011-10-14T15:12:00.000-07:00

tiba2 terasa nak keep track setakat ni, aku dh sampai mana.
hurm. refresh balik memori.

Freshman:

1. Atlanta (winter)
2. Chicago (summer)

Sophomore:

3. Gatlinburg (thanksgiving)
4. Florida Road Trip:
i. Alabama
ii.Panama City
iii.Tampa
iv.Miami
v.Key West
vi.Disneyworld, Universal Studios, Busch Garden, Seaworld
5. Washington-New York-Canada Road Trip:
i. Washington
ii. New York
iii. Niagara Falls
iv.Massachusetts
v.Toronto
vi.Canada Wonderland, Cedar Point

Junior:

*cont'd nanti. lol
nk letak gamba tp malas.

2011-10-09T23:57:00.001-07:00

rasa kurang kasih sayang.
sobs.
emo x tentu pasal.

monyet arctic

2011-10-07T01:15:00.000-07:00

yes. saat aku serahkan homework fluid kat TA pkul 4.45 petang hari rabu, bermula lah episode fall break aku. echewah.
serius, x pernah rasa se-happy tu submit homework.

malam tu ader concert Arctic Monkeys! weehoo!
lagu ni yg membuatkan aku terpikat. echewah. diorg pun selenge lg masa ni. lol.

aku minat diorang dr kt mesia lg. akhirnyer ader chance nk pegi concert diorg. at first berat hati sebab GA. cam x elok jer kan pompuan pegi concert, GA pulok tu. bukan macam, memang x elok pun. lols.
long story short, after I watched them live at Lollapalooza, secara x sedar check out ticket. yes, seriously secara x sengaja.
awesome sangat duh diorang live.
lama gak aaa kterorg beratur. konon datang awal sebab nk dpt front row.
we did ended up at front row. well, technically second row but still, kira depan skali aaaa. dh aaa kt tgh2. kira singer nanti betul2 depan mata aa.
ader opening by saper ntah. x kenalkan diri, tiba2 jer main lagu.
serious sumer org x tau. diam jer. lols.
masa tu I thought "GA is not so bad after all" sebab xder pun org himpit2 ke, haper ke. aku cam ader space sendiri, siap bley pusing2, stretching2 lg.
bler Arctic Monkeys keluar, mulala orang naik gila.
mula2 ader pakcik besar belakang aku yg macam 'protect' aku sebab dia besar, org x berani nk langgar dia kut. tapi last2 dia blah sbb x tahan.
teruk jugak aaaa org main tolak2.
sesekali aku kne tolak, terhimpit orang depan yg kt pagar. ader org crowd surfing la. omg, it was a disaster.
tapi kan, dalam diorg main tolak2 tu, xder pulok diorg raba org ke, haper ke.
I mean, kalau tolak tu, diorg angkat tangan or genggam kan tangan.
sakit gak badan. haih.
that was my first and last GA. x sanggup dah.
and x tau pulok ader seating rupernyer. masa nk beli tiket xder pung =.="
aku x berape enjoy sangat concert tu sbb x berapa selesa.
but still, it was awesome.

after that concert, ingat nak balik terus sebab lapaq.
Adilah ajak stay and stalk diorg.
at first aku rasa cam x make sense sebab cam impossible jer nk jumper diorg.
ramai jugak org tunggu kt backdoor tu. tp after a while, org blah sbb pikir cam aku pikir tu kut.
after about 2 hours, Adilah nampak org rambut elvis. "ALEX!"
terus org melayu yg dtg serbu. haha
omputih lain x prasan pun =.="

speechless duh jumper Alex Turner.
menggigil kepala lutut sebab excited. lolol.
budak2 ni lg la. mintak sign baju la. Adilah mintak sign kt beg. haha
mula2 dia buat gaya lain. aku buat 'peace'
pastu dia ikut, buat peace jugak. aaaa, comel nyer Alex :3

amek gambar dengan drummer dia jugak.
drummer dia hustler gilaaaa. lagu arctic monkeys byk yg laju2 kan.

angau kt Alex pulok skrang :3

2011-09-27T10:40:00.000-07:00

bnde ni patutnyer nk post sebulan yg lepas. baru prasan. lol.

when I feel all alone, in 'forever alone' mood, my awesome friends will remind me that I am not.

Events that made me so F-in' happy on my birthday:

my buddy, Saidah was the first to wish me through sms. at exactly 12am (malaysia's time)

my GF (LOL), Siew Ping made a video for me. She sang the 'happy birthday' song. I'm really touched! :')
then she sent a package with lots of stuff and love!

I bought a goldfish for myself. named it Blueberry II. *first one died. sobs T.T

meet Blueberry II

Al gave me a link to a cool 'happy birthday' video. and a sweater :D

Irfan gave me a birthday card.

Kyra-chan and Dillot-chan bought a cheesecake from The Cheesecake Factory.

Mimie masak paprik. it was sooo delicious! serious x tipu. lulus, bley bukak kedai makan. hihi

just when I thought I've had enough 'love' from everyone on my birthday, (just about to go to sleep) my friends came to my room with a cake!
Thank you so much wani, abel, aten, bella, yang, reny, ann, diana, dillot, aliya, kyra, adilah.
it didn't end there. they got me a birthday present too!
tadaaahhhh

meet Kalor.

I've always wanted this. I almost buy it until I saw the shipping rate. =.="
my thought was "nah, I'll buy it when I get back next year"
turns out I don't have too. :)

ok, setakat tu sahaja post sempena bosan menunggu kelas socio sat lg.

2011-08-25T01:22:00.000-07:00

ntah kenape jiwa ni kacau.
haih. I'm not being myself la ckp pasal hati, cinta, blah blah nih *not that I'm in love or something like that.

but, this one dude really stirred up my life. no, not U-you-know-who. he was nothing but the worst mistake in my life. lol. lawak bler ingt balik.
ok, sambung drama sedih.

aku beli ikan emas tu sbnrnyer nk menggembirakan hati yg duka lara.
mmg berkesan. serius happy bler dapat ikan tuh.
tapi sayang hanya sementara. *chewah
sebab tu bler dia mati, aku nangis cam bak kata mak, org mati anak.
sebab aku dh lama jugak pendam bnde nih. x macho la nangis.
nangis tu ntuk org yg lemah jer.
tapi ntah kenape, bler ikan tu mati, laju jer mencurah air mata nih.
mmg aku sedih ikan tu mati but there was something else.
cam, air mata yg patutnyer kuar sblum ni, yg aku duk tahan2, keluar jugak akhirnyer.

yes, I know. I'm not being myself cakap camni.

no matter how hard I'm trying to act tough like everything's alright, deep inside I'm too vulnerable. kenape emo sangat nih.
jangan cari pasal please aini. sem baru start.
dh la bakal xder life sem ni.
concentrate please.

2011-08-24T23:08:00.000-07:00

since sebelum ni ader cakap nk beli something ntuk diri sendiri, aku beli la sekor goldfish. siap balang bulat tuh, ader pokok ngan batu sket lg.
dah lama dh nak bela ikan ni. dr freshman lg.
tgh stress2 ni aku spend tanpa berfikir 2 kali. so, puff! aku pun beli.

dgn bahagia nyer aku bawak Blueberry balik. Ipan yg bg nama. since nama tu cam comel jer. ltk jer aaa nama Blueberry.
serious happy. dh la comel sangat blueberry nih. huargh.
dh siapkan air sumer, aku letak la dia dlm tu.
dh nampak cam pelik dah sebenarnyer. tp since nk kne pegi soran bushi tu, tinggal la kejap.
aku letak la sket flake makanan dia tuh.

balik tu aku pun dgn eager nyer nk tgk keadaan Blueberry. dia x berenang2 pun. duk diam jer kt dasar tuh. insang dia pun x gerak dah.
T.T
sooooooooooooooobbbbbbbbbbbbbbssssssssssss.

sumpah kecewa. kecewa sangat nih. cam org mati anak pulok aku nangis. x tau knaper.
bnde tu comel sangaaaattttt. sian nyeeerrrrrrr T.T
mmg la org kata kalau ajal dh sampai tu, x dapek nk elak dah. tapi bawah jagaan aku kuuuutttt T.T

dh la buat cendol ptg td x jadik. mmg malang aaaa nasib hari nih.

sok nk pegi amek ikan baru since ader warranty. haaaa, beli ikan pun ader warranty. dia kata kalau mati dlm masa 14 hari, dtg balik bawak ikan mati tu, tukar yg baru.
sok nk pegi. so, hopefully, Blueberry II nanti panjang laaa umur beliau.

kalau mati jugak, bunuh diri aaaa.

appreciate diri sendiri

2011-08-23T00:50:00.000-07:00

I love you, but I love myself more. lol
antara pengajaran yg aku baru dapat. sayangi diri sendiri.
haha

so, terasa nak beli something ntuk diri sendiri. dh lama x beli.
eerrr, bantal baru tu x termasuk. xbox pun tak. keh3.

ari tu almost nk check out Ipod. x make sense.
=.="
duit xder, berangan lebih pulok. lol

dah la fall sem dh nk start.
demmit. x bersedia. tidaaaakkk.

hidup masa cuti sangat membahagiakan. x payah nk risau aper2.
even though kadang2 bosan
but hey, I'd rather duk termenung x buat aper2 than sibuk siapkan homework. hihi

downside of her life.

2011-08-22T02:37:00.000-07:00

now you can drop it. all of the acts.
I must say, you are one hell of an actor.
you mush had lots of fun, eh?
playing around with a 20 years old girl's feeling.
She was so naive. too naive.

you've just made a big hole in her life.
leaving a pretty nasty scar.

her life will never be the same.
she can turn your life upside down, cause a mess in your life.
but for some reason, revenge is not her 'thing'
she is too kind.
she doesn't deserve this.

please, be strong.

2011-08-22T01:37:00.000-07:00

damn.

backstabber.

it hurts more than I thought.

ouch.

2011-08-21T00:22:00.001-07:00

do not take advantage of my loyalty.
you might lose it.

moe

2011-08-10T18:40:00.000-07:00

I don't know why but suddenly I feel like, I want to read kaichou wa maid sama. It has been a while. I even forget what was the last chapter that I had read. As usual, the manga is filled with moe scene (lovey-dovey-kawaii-scene) of usui and misaki

I forgot how kawaii they aaarrrreeeeee <3
comel sangat niiiiii.

nak kawin please. nk lovey-dovey ngan laki.

saper berminat, cepat masuk meminang.
LOL

*kecewa la jd pompuan yg x market. haih.

monyet artik

2011-08-07T01:35:00.000-07:00

sempena jeles tahap cipan ngan mokcik adilah yg dpt jumper Alex Turner, aku layan lagu arctic monkeys.

ni antara lagu fav aku aaaaa.
album diorg skrang bley layan aaa. x sampai aku ulang2 cam album yg nih. lol.

tapi rambut dia skrang hampeh. dh kureng ke-hensem-an beliau.

2011-07-30T00:43:00.000-07:00

I don't know why but I like watching you from a distance.
then I'll just smile.
kinda miss you.

:)

hurm.

2011-07-25T15:45:00.000-07:00

for some reason yg tidak diketahui, sy suker Rihanna dlm video nih.

serious.
x tau knaper.
=.="

masak.

2011-07-25T12:50:00.000-07:00

tiba2 rasa nk menaip kt sini kejap. ekeke
aku sebenarnyer agak suker aaaaa main masak2 nih :P
aku bley masak bnde yg aku tringin nk makan, mengikut citarasa aku.
tp aku sbnrnyer kureng gemar masak ntuk org skali.
kenape?
haaaaaa.
sbb citarasa org lain2. takut aaa kan citarasa aku x sama ngan diorg.
pd aku maybe dh ok, pd org lain tak.
aku sendri pun kalau mkn org lain masak, x sedap, cam, eeeerrrrr...
tp setkt ni org lain masak ntuk aku sedap jer. hihi

setakat ni aku masak, sumer rasa kureng. kecewa2.
maaf la kawan2 yg terpaksa makan aku masak tuh.
saya budak baru belajar. sooobbbbsss.

2011-07-12T23:17:00.000-07:00

I have no one to turn to.

2011-07-12T23:09:00.000-07:00

when you ask a girl, "are you okay?" and she said "I'm fine," that literally means "no I'm not, what the fuck were you thinking?"

and before that, you asked her "are you mad?" when it is obvious that I am mad. that just made it worse.
ppffffttt.

screw you. I'm not giving in anymore.
I've my own limit.

sad sad situation.

2011-07-11T19:03:00.000-07:00

title dr lagu sorry seems to be the hardest word.

"It is not that the "free and fair" elections many Bersih members are fighting for aren't a legitimate cause. It is the fact that the leadership of Bersih are disingenuously harnessing the good intentions, energy, and resources of their naive followers to carry out foreign-funded sedition and regime change that will result in a dismal future for all Malaysians. Surely the ancestors of today's Bersih protesters didn't struggle and fight for Malaysian independence just so a foreign-backed stooge like Anwar Ibrahim could worm his way back into power, and with him bring back the same slouching degenerate bankers, merchants, and monied elite who had despoiled Malaysia and her riches for centuries."

quoted from here

kerbaupit

2011-07-07T00:20:00.000-07:00

ntah knaper, sedang aku melayan music video 'hey baby' by Pitbull feat. T-Pain, secara random nyer aku terpikir "not bad Pitbull nih"
sheet.
freak out duuuuhhhhh
hahahahahaha

x make sense. maybe sbb dia suker pakai suit putih, cam nmpk cool. pastu cara dia nyanyi dlm video tu yg senget2 mulut, pun cam cool. pastu suara dia yg cam, macho gitu. pun agak cool jugak.

tp dia x hensem puunngg. dh la botaaakkk.
x make seeeennnssseeeeee.

*byk pulok post kan nk exam nih. =.="

2011-07-06T22:11:00.000-07:00

I love clubbing-low bass type of song.
Is something wrong with me? =.="

and usually lagu2 camni mesti music video ader pompuan yg x lawa pun, tp bdn diorg, eerr, pada aku x la lawa sangat. tp ntuk omputih sexy la kut. yg jenis yg 'mantap' gituu. haha
aper yg aku merapek niiiiii. haih.

update wishlist.

2011-07-04T01:47:00.000-07:00

ok, yg nombor 2 dah tercapai. muahaha
xder aaa beli Coach. gler ke haper tgh kegawatan ekonomi nih.
Coach tu contoh jer aaa.
dpt la nih:

beg baru sy.

x pernah ader beg. I mean, cam beg ntuk jln2 la. handbag, huh, apatah lg. tu nnti kut, x teringin pun lg. lol.
besar gak aaa beg nih. muat baby Canon aku tuh. heh, baby dh besar sket (umur dh meningkat), dh malas sket nk jaga. ala, beg kamera tu pun lbh kureng jeeww. nnti aa beli beg yg sepatutnyer ntuk kamera. dh ader accessories, aper kejadah sumer tuh. lg pun duit xder.
sooobbsss. kecewa aa camni. org sumer tgh masyuk baru dpt gaji, aku duk diam2 jer. haih.
haih haih.
sabar sabar.
tp bagus jugak duit org pegangkan nih. xder la aku nk blanjer sesuker hati. secara x langsung, berjimat laaa sket.

politik.

2011-07-01T01:46:00.000-07:00

eh, penatla aku nk melayan politik nih.
the argument used on one side can be use against the other side too.
so, x habis2 aaa nk gaduh.
gaduh la gaduh. ppffttt.

aku x kisah org nk politik2 nih.
just, aku x suker jenis yg, camner nk ckp eh, contoh dia camni aaa.
aku ader secara x sengaja berdebat ngan org mna ntah kt fb tu. lol
x tau aa knaper tempting nk nyampuk.
ader yg tanyer, ader ke sebut hadis pasal haram sama sekali lawan pemimpin negara?
aku tanyer balik, ader ke yg sebut halal sama sekali lawan pemimpin negara?
one of them replied this:

"tang ade mende yg berlawanan ngan kjaan, kua laa hadis itu ini, kua laa video seks faked , kua laa surat kabar anjing kjaan, kua laa mcm2 mende...tp bile dianjur konsert artis mcm nak bogel smpai terkeluar itu ini ade yg bising..?gua saspek najib ngan anjing2 dia senyum lebar laa weh layan pompuan seksi kat screen tv...mane hadis nak lawan semua tuh..?ulamak2 depan gi simpan semua kitab2 dlm peti ais takut najib buang keje..."

aku x suker jenis camni. ppffttt.
jenis yg guna 'anjing' la, aper la. ayat yg provoke.
aper yg ko ckp nih? x make sense.
x berasas. like hello, ko nampak ke dia buat aper?
=.="
'layan pompuan seksi kt screen tv' - wtf was that? tgk movie pun ader pompuan seksi. =_____________="
tp aku x jwb aa camtu. kang makin angin mamat tu. lolol

maybe aku ni jenis yg judge org cam, "innocent until proven guilty".
damn, x pasal2 aku jd sampah ari nih, duk baca pasal bnde2 nih.
eh, tdo la. xnk tdo, study. ppfftt.

main masak2.

2011-06-26T21:38:00.000-07:00

semenjak duk umah ader dapur ni kan, rajin sungguh dak2 ni masak.
dh masak, amek gmbo, pastu post kat fb.

aku sbnrnyer kurang gemar org masak, amek gmbo pastu post kt fb nih.

aku paham, mesti aa bangga kan, dh masak sedap2, lawa2.

yes, I am jealous.

saper x jeles weeeyy, kalau aku mkn nasik lauk telur ngan sambal jer, pastu tgk org post gamba masak spesel2. fuh fuh. sedapnyeerr.

tu nsb baik aku dah mkn gak. kalau aku tgh kebuluran? x rasa x sedap hati ke?
I mean, kter mkn sedap2, tunjuk pulok kt org, pastu org tu terliur je tgk.

telan air liur jer dia. pastu tiba2 kriiuukk, berbunyi perut dia.
sian dia.

rasa x best la kan. tu kalau aku laaa.

sbb tu aku x buat. aku tau perasaan org yg tgk gambo tu camner. x best.

x nak aa org rasa perasaan camtu jugok.

bkn nk marah org wat camtu or aper2 pun. tu hak diorg la kan.
tp kalau dh post tuh, hulur la sket. meleleh air liur aku tgk.

huhuhuhuu T.T

waktu ntuk meng-emo

2011-06-26T14:45:00.000-07:00

It's that time of the month, where aku emo x tentu pasal.
lol.
x tau aaaaa. btul aa wani, aku complicated duh.
sian laki aku nnti. haih.

pastu rasa kurang kasih sayang. cam, kewujudan aku kt dunia ni x bermakna aper2 pun. kalau aku mati, xder saper kisah, camtu aaa.

haih. *duduk kt corner bilik, dlm gelap, ader 1 lampu jer atas aku. sambil cangkung, kuis2 tanah kt situ.

p.s: reben aku dh tukar baru, wohoo! camtu jer mamat kt sunglass hut tukarkn. kalau aku tau, aku toreh2 ngan kunci, baru rasa berbaloi tukar. haha

wishlist.

2011-06-20T20:50:00.000-07:00

x tau knaper tp tiba2 terasa nk beli byk barang and sumer mahal2 belaka. =.="
kalau kaya xper jugok. dh aaa x keje masa summer. xder duit aaaaaaaa.
pastu terasa nk listkan jer dulu barang yg nk dibeli. target dlm masa setahun ni kut, nk beli sumer. ni nafsu ni. lol.
dh lama x wat camni. dulu masa sekolah menengah, slalu wat wishlist. pastu sanggup aaa x mkn masa rehat, kumpul duit. pastu skrang ntah ke mana bnde yg aku beli tuh. =_____="

1. Rayban Aviator.

ni yg first and dh dpt dh. hihi
tp dh calaaarrrr. shoootttt. dh aaa jatuh ngam2 pulok angle kne bucu batu. kuang asam. walaupun setitik jer, tp sayang wooooo T.T
pastu naik roller coaster kt cedar point x dpt nk enjoy sepenuhnyer sbb takut baby ni jatuh. bagai minyak ditatang penuh, jatuh jugak akhirnyer. kecewa kecewa

2. Sling bag.

x specific aa nk brand aper. tp setkt ni I got my eyes in this one. Coach, audrey leather. tp mahal sngt cam x make sense. lol
nk spesis yg camni aa. crossbody, pastu x la besar sangat.

3. Apple Ipod nano

yes, I like my bass down low. lol.
nk ni sbb dh lama nk mp3 player yg kecik. Ipod touch besar aaaa. nk dgr music jer. nnti konon berangan nk beli Iphone. kih3. berangan aaaa. x suker sngt phone fully touch screen nih.

4. Lomography Diana F+

yes, sy dh ader dslr. tp nk jugak nih sbb nanti nk beli instant back so bley jd poloroid and fish eye lens. nk beli fish eye lens ntuk dslr x dapek aaa. aku survey2 dlm $300. tu pun bkn jenama canon. yg cam, Tamron tuh. fuh fuh. photography expensive sngt la weeyy. ngan flash and tripod x beli lg. pfftt. =.=" tu masuk wishlist ni jugok.

5. Plush Fugi

ni random. haha. sian keroro dh lama sangat dia keseorangan. shamu kecik sangat. lol. comel aaaa. tp ni lg satu, mahal jugok. dlm USD pun dlm $38. ni nk beli ntuk diri sendri on birthday kut. haha, bapak pathetic beli hadiah birthday sendri. reward ntuk diri sendiri ok :P

6. watch baru

berangan nk swatch. mula2 ingt nk beli yg plastic jer swatch tp plastic sngt =.="

plastic yg keras tu. wadehek. baik beli besi jer trus. yg leather dh ader dh, fossil. tu pun cam nk hancus dh. lol. plastic beli cap lain aaa. nk ader sumer jns watch. dem, mana tumpahnyer kuah kalau x ke nasik. abah pun suker kumpul watches. =.="

hurm, tu dulu kut. nnti update lg. lolol.
hopefully, by thn dpn, dh dpt aaa sumer. mana nk cekau duit nih, demmit.

nk jln lg winter kang. ppfftt. summer thn dpn pun nk jln gak.

haaaa, nnti wat wishlist versi jln2 pulok. :P

2011-06-18T23:39:00.000-07:00

nak ni please.

http://usa.shop.lomography.com/cameras/plastic-fantastic-standard

comeeeellll.

cam best jer bnde lomography nih. tp kureng nyer dia pki film. =.="
kt sni kt mna eh nk cuci gambar? mahal x?

seyes nak beli. kalau x sumer pun, nk yg fish eye. fish eye lens mahal gler kut. =.="

hampeh.

2011-06-16T10:17:00.001-07:00

kalau dah kurang bijak tu, memang kurang bijak jugak la.
buat la aper pun, sama jer.
T.T

bunuh diri aa camni.

end of maymester

2011-06-04T20:43:00.000-07:00

June 4th, 2011. Saturday.
Summer session 1 starts on Tuesday.

Chem 220A. Organic Chemistry. ppfftt.
God, please be with me throughout the journey.
sigh

dah puas jalan2, pokai la pulok. omg, bajet lari ke laut.

tp rasa puas hati sbb duit byk hbs beli souvenir ntuk family ntuk diri sendiri.

hihi

aku sbnrnyer malas dah nk update aper2 kt sini tp x tau knaper tiba2 rasa nak menaip but x tau nk menaip pasal aper. lol
pastu tiba2 mood malas tu datang balik.
ok dah. chow dulu. lol.

pft.

2011-05-26T12:02:00.001-07:00

It's 'amazing' how people come to you when they need you.
Then ditch you when they don't need you.

heh. another 'great' thing about this 'great' world.

awesome.

2011-05-24T10:13:00.000-07:00

I really wish I'm a psychopath. right now.
So I won't be easily offended.

I hate this feeling.

thermo-phobia no more.

2011-05-08T09:38:00.000-07:00

alhamdulillah. my thermo's final grade is not as bad as I thought it would be.
it's either I really 'kicked ass' in final exam or Prof. Laibanis 'curve' the grade like, insanely. or both.

but,

TAK MAKE SENSE.

thermo's grade is better than math.
sumpah x make sense. x make sense sangaaatttt.

T.T

spring 2011

2011-05-08T02:17:00.000-07:00

pejam celik, pejam celik, dah habis spring semester.

dengan itu berakhir sudah tahun kedua saya menuntut ilmu di sini.
echewah. tiba2 terskema =.="

2 tahun lg nak grad. fuh fuh.

kadang2 rasa nyesal pulok x balik tahun nih. huargh. rindu mak abah :(
last jumpa tepat setahun yg lepas. ingt lg, masa kt airport tu, mula2 x nampak mak, nampak abah jer. haha
dah nampak mak, air mata ni x tahan dah. terus mengalir dengan derasnyer. lol

*sy gembeng. heh.

pastu melepek selama seminggu sbb x tahan kepanasan malaysia. lol
bukan nak menggedik ke haper, memang terkejut sket ngan perubahan cuaca wooo. padahal masa pindah tu, kt sini pun dah mula panas dah, dah mula summer. tp disebabkan humidity.

pastu balik sini balik pun melepek kepanasan jugak. panas sangat pulok. =.="

tp xper, nanti nak g trip new york-canada. yeay.

tu price ntuk x balik mesia. dpt jln2. lol

and x dpt nk beli byk barang jugak. barang tu xper, lain kali bley beli.

nak jalan2 kt sni, dlm masa 4 tahun ni jer boleh. leceh kan nk masuk US. nk kne apply visa la, haper la. haih.

so, sementara ader visa and ader kt sini nih, kter utilizekn dia. ekeke.

btw, td roomate dah siap2 kemas barang dia dah. soobbss. sayu gak hati aku tgk. dah ah dia balik mesia, pastu dh x jd roomate daaaahh. soooobbsss T.T

yg aku ni bler ntah nk start packing. x tau nk mula dr mana. haih.

nanti mesti ader jer barang yang datang dr mana ntah, yg aku x ingat asal usulnya. =.="

heh

2011-04-29T15:27:00.001-07:00

aku x harap tinggi pun ntuk thermo.
sekadar lulus pun dah cukup.
soobbssss. T.T

jatuh

2011-04-26T03:42:00.000-07:00

Kalau dah byk kali sngt jatuh ni pun bahaya jugok eh.
lali pulok.
=.="
haih. don't get too comfortable la aini ooiiii.
nak final niiiii T.T

btw, mrkh math test 3 ari tuh x lg teruk dr thermo. lol.
alhamdulillah. Prof Xia yg comel lg baik hati tmbh markah. hihi

lusa final. aku pulok sempat tgk naruto. 10 episode ader aku rasa td.
tgh conflict duuhhh. mana bley tinggal gitu jer.
x senang nk study =.="
skrang bley study ngan aman, insyaAllah.
ok, tu jer nk taip. effect caramel macchiato, x bley tdo @.@

=.="

2011-04-15T17:31:00.000-07:00

Fuck you math. I think I'm missing the gene to understand math or something, because I'm sooooo bad at math T.T
Math 198 is supposed to be easy.
and here I am, just got raped by the 3rd test. seriously. that bad.
I even think that my grade for Thermo test 2 is waay better that the grade for Math test 3.
x make sense, Thermo's grade, better than math.

TAK MAKE SEEEENNNSSSEEEEE.

org yg rapat.

2011-04-02T16:59:00.000-07:00

skrang rajin sbb dh xder bnde sngt nk wat. tgh keje kt varsity nih. lol
x pernah dibuat pekerja varsity bwk laptop. ari ni jer, ok. dh xder org dtg pun. pastu xder bnde nk di-stock. =.="

berbalik pada tajuk. mesti ader yg pernah ditanya "saper yg paling rapat ngan ko?" or "saper kawan baik ko?".
honestly, aku x suker soalan nih.
kalau aku salah jawab kang, ader yg terasa pulok.
sebab aku pernah terasa. *echewah.
aku ingt aku agak rapat ah ngan org nih. pastu ader org tanyer soklan camtu kt dia, dia x sebut pun nama aku. so, agak terasa di situ. syok sendiri rupernyer. sooobbss.

so, aku x nk jawab soklan tu kalau ader org tanyer.
"dh tu, camner ko nk tau org yg rapat ngan ko?"
haaaaaa. kalau org tu rapat ngan aku, dia tau ah.
or, dia rasa dia rapat ngan aku, mmg dia rapat ngan aku la tuh.

so, kepada kawan baik aku, you know who you are ;)

comeback.

2011-04-01T11:27:00.000-07:00

"yatta!"

my marks for thermo may not be as good as most of the Malaysians.
but it's waaaayyy better than first one.
and, beyond my expectation.
let's just say, tinggi jugak ah bg standard aku.
Alhamdulillah. :)

comeback baby.
baru la semangat nk blajo thermo. hihi
kne kekalkan. yosh.
dh nampak balik sinar harapan yg sblum ni x nmpk langsung. gelap gelita jer.

tapi kan, thermo dh ok, yg lain pulok hancus. demmit. T.T

F

2011-03-24T08:44:00.000-07:00

ok, now I feel like s.

what is f-in' wrong with me? especially this morning.

when I read the questions, it was like, I 'skipped' a few words.

like, I don't see them. it has been a while since the last time this happened.

maybe my mind wasn't really focus at that time.

no, stop making excuses.

I screwed it, super badly.

f. f myself. *is that even possible? lol. ok, dh start merapek.

yes, when I'm so f-ed up, I'll curse a lot. like, everything got f-ed. at least for today.

never thought of this. lol

and I have MSE test tomorrow. best part, I haven't study.

yes, I'm f-ed.

heat.

2011-03-23T02:17:00.000-07:00

thermo, turbo. whatever you called it.
I think I'm starting to have 'thermophobia'.
No, not that 'fear of heat'.
Fear of thermodynamics. =.="

diagram favorite skrang nih. haha

*berkabung sat sempena terkorban test thermo td.
eh, susah la camni. kalau 2nd test pun nk hancus, nk jd haper nih?
tukar major ah camni. tp nk major aper? bnde lain sumer pun hancus jugak.
ppffftttt.
ader 2 tests lg nih, apshal aku chill sngt? =.="

p.s: still x stop dgr OneRepublic ulang2 kali. nak pegi lg concert OneRepublic pleeaasseee. and kali ni nk duk btul2 depan stage. oh Ryan Tedder <3 :P

all fall down.

2011-03-12T17:27:00.000-08:00

"If ever your will starts crashing down, whenever your will starts crashing down, whenever your will starts crashing down, that's where you find me."

but when my will starts crashing down, who should I find?
It's not 'all fall down', it would be just me.

heh. getting used to that.

ppfffttt.

2011-03-07T01:43:00.000-08:00

mulut org. mmg kter x bley tutup.
and pemikiran org. kter x bley nk halang org wat spekulasi aper2.
mmg la gurau jer.

tp kalau sampai jejaskan friendship, x best la kan.
haih.

2011-02-18T11:47:00.000-08:00

kalau orang wat baik kt aku, aku balas balik berkali ganda baik.
kalau orang wat jahat kt aku, aku balas balik berkali ganda jahat.

it's a vicious cycle. but you forced me to do it.
so, if you want me to be a bitch, I'll be one.
if you want me to be your best-est friend, I'll be one.
I'll let you decide.

sekian.

this is a general post to anyone.
saper yg nk wat jahat kt aku tu, pikir2 balik.
saper yg nk wat baik, you won't regret it, I promise.
orang yg btul2 kenal aku, tau ah kan pasal nih.

and again, jgn sesuka hati interpret aper yg aku tulis kt sini.
aku dh penat ngan orang yg sesuka hati rasa dia kenal aku sangat. interpret sumer bnde yg aku tulis. no, you don't.
nk kepastian, jumper aku. jgn wat andaian sendiri.
aku dh fed up.

cinta x kesampaian.

2011-02-18T01:19:00.000-08:00

ok, aku rasa cam org baru putus cinta.
kasih sayang yang ku curahkan selama ini, rupernyer tidak dihargai.
kecewa2.

first of all, jgn membuat andaian aper2. aku ni agaknyer mmg dpt gene sarcastic dr bapak aku.
kalau dia marah bai, fuh. menusuk kalbu aper yg dia ckp.
padahal masa dia ckp tu xder nada marah pun.
x berniat pun nk get things across to anyone. kang tiba2 ader pulok yg terasa. pastu x pasal2 aku pulok yg kene.
kalau x tau, duk diam2. jangan wat andaian sendiri.
tolong ah. aku ader byk bnde lain lg kne deal dr life aku kt vandy ni jer.

ok, berbalik kepada cerita. ader la seseorang ni.
dalam diam, aku sayang dia sangat2. aku x cakap as aku mana pandai bnde sweet2 nih. =,="
karakter dia yg nmpk cam lemah, membuatkan aku rasa aku nk lindungi dia. aku nk jaga dia sebab aku tau, aper kekurangan dia, aper kelebihan dia, and aku terima seadanyer semua tu.
aku dh berniat nk jaga dia. serius. org hentam dia, aku back up.
senang cter kalau dia ader aper2 masalah, serius dia bley count on me.

prnh aku ckp sblum ni, kepercayaan aku agak susah nk di-earn. aku susah nk percaya orang. tp org ni, dia dh dpt dh.
walaupun x selalu ckp, x byk bnde yg kterorg kongsi bersama, diam2 aku perhatikan dia dr jauh. kadang2 ader yg aku mintak tolong org, tgk2 kan dia kalau aku xder ke, haper ke.
kalau aku g mna2, yg aku bley bawak balik smthg ntuk dia, aku bwk balik.

and ader gak bnde yg aku wat senyap2 yg dia x tau(maybe la). dia ni selalu rasa rendah diri sangat. aku cuba boost kan sket. aku prnh stalk blog dia, bg kata2 perangsang sket. klau tu dpt wat dia senyum sket, aku hepi jugak.

and then, semakin hari, semakin jauh.

tiba2, boom. terasa diri ditusuk duri. sungguh x disangka.

ishk. tangkap leleh jugak gua bai.

hancur luluh hatiku.

org lain aku kurang kisah. tp dia.. sungguh x ku sangka.

apakan daya, jodoh x panjang. dia baik, aku jahat. combination yang x kene.
lgpun dia dh makin matang. dh bley hidup tanpa aku. aku pun dh x berapa risau dah. aku percayakan orang yg selalu ngan dia skrang tu. org tu waayyy better than me.
dh besar panjang dah. tsk*dh mcm ckp pasal anak pulok.

tp aku x prnh menyesal pun ader perasaan syg tu kt dia.
xper la, aku akan ingat segala bnde baik yg berlaku sepanjang kter bersama.
aku x pernah simpan aper2. kalau suruh aku recall balik bnde yg dia wat yg aku x puas ati ke, haper ke, aku x ingt. serius aku x ingt.

aku jenis yg x suker panjangkan cerita. aku selalu ader prinsip cam, ntuk sumer bnde, ader at least 2 pilihan.
sebagai contoh, aku lapar. kalau makan, kenyang ah. kalau malas, berlapar jugak ah.

aku sacrifice ntuk kebahagiaan org lain, aku misery.
aku pentingkan diri kang, pun misery jugak.
haih. pathetic sungguh hidup ini.

but I will still continue to watch org tu from quite a distance.
and maybe I'll smile every time I think of the great things we have done together.
thank you so much.

p.s: kne betulkan balik niat. buat baik sbb Allah, bkn sbb org. kalau org x balas balik aper yg kter dh wat, xder ah kecewa sngt kan.
http://www.iluvislam.com/tazkirah/nasihat/1013-berilah-kerana-allah.html

tired.

2011-02-17T17:48:00.000-08:00

I'm so fucking tired with this drama, I don't give a fuck about it anymore.

hey, yes, I know, everything is my fault.
it's ALWAYS my fucking fault.
I'm seriously getting used to that.
"oh, nah, you don't have to feel guilty or anything. it's my fault. let me take the heat for you. go ahead, have fun. don't worry about it. I got your back"

I seriously don't give a damn anymore.
I've always try my best to be the very best to everyone.
no matter how hard I try, people will say I'm bad after all.

So, here's what I came up with.
instead of people saying I'm bad, even though I'm trying my best to be good, I'll be bad.
I'll be bad for good.
I'll be the most bad ass motherfucker that everyone want me to be so badly.

Oh, hell yeah.

black sheep.

2011-02-17T09:42:00.000-08:00

not just a crazy motherfucker, someone got to take the blame for everything. and yup, most people will blame the black sheep.

baa baa black shit.

muahaha

2011-02-15T08:20:00.000-08:00

I've been so darn busy last week.

and this week is pretty much the same too. I should be studying Thermodynamic for the test this evening, but, take 5 :P

anyway, I've been working for 2 weeks now.

just on weekends. 3pm to 9pm on Saturday and Sunday. yeah, I gave up my weekends to support my 'nafsu' on buying stuff :P

and I want to buy stuff for my family and give it to them, when I get back home hopefully, next year. I gotta admit, I've been very jealous when my friends bought stuff for their family.

with my 1st paycheck (oh hell yeah I've think about what I'm going to buy :P), I want this:

another baby. baby nano :P

I haven't really decide what to engrave on it. I think it's kinda boring to just engrave my name. So far, I like what I engraved above, "Aini likes her bass down low" :P

'Bass down low' is my favorite song right now. and even though Dev is not as cute as I thought she is, I still like her :P

mad.

2011-02-10T08:37:00.000-08:00

I'm so ~~fuckin'~~ angry at myself right now.

ang pi kalut sangat tu awat?
yg senang pun ang pi bantai salah.
suka ati ang. balik kampung, tanam jagung jer la.

sekian.

2011-02-03T22:32:00.000-08:00

I wish I'm a genius.

I don't have to work hard to solve problems.

I don't have to disturb my friends, begging for help.

I won't ask for help if I don't need help.

I really wish I'm a super duper genius.

and I also wish for not being too sensitive.

p.s: thanks to friends that had helped me a lot. I know this is cliche, but, only God can repay what you guys have done. and if there's anything that I can help with in the future, don't hesitate to ask.

I think people should fell in love and get married, once.

2011-01-26T16:22:00.000-08:00

Don't you think?

If you noticed, it's kinda a trend, nowadays, to 'couple'.
But don't you think it's too much if you change your partners like you change your clothes?
I don't think the people that do this really know what love is.
Frankly, I don't really know it myself either.

I've been in a relationship once, but I wasn't sure what it really was between us because I never really loved him from the first place.
Why did I accepted him on the first place? Curiosity, I guess. and empathy.
All those things I did for him; I did it because I think that what a girlfriend should do for her boyfriend (I guess).

Now that I gave a thought about it, that was one of the stupidest decision I've ever made.
blergh.
*remaja. biasa la kan. ppfft.
that's why I didn't feel a thing when we broke up. lol.
I felt a little bit of sadness just because I thought that was what I need to feel.
I know, it doesn't sound right.
I never regretted what has happened though. It was fun.
'For experience' like most people said. ;)

Seriously, after this, I want to do it 'old-school'. Wait until someone come to my house and ask for engagement, or my mom looks for a candidate. HAHA

I just remembered. I have this one, funny thought before. I want to get married just because I think I have to. like, it's an obligation. I want to be a career woman. So, I'm gonna be busy, etc. No time for family. lol.

cheer, single ladies!

*p.s: my English is gettin' rusty. damn.

2011-01-18T09:27:00.000-08:00

I need to stop putting hopes on people.
So I won't end up feeling hurt.

*it's that time of the month where I'm in the state of 'emo-ing'.
haih.

good friend

2011-01-17T13:48:00.000-08:00

How do you define a good friend?

The one that spend time with you; 24-7?
The one that shares every secrets with you?
The one that you can have fun with?
The one that will be with you at hard times?
The one that made special video, just for you?
The one that made a special post just for you on their blog?
The one that always treat you?
The one that accept you for who you are?
The one that can deal with your mood swing?
The one that will listen to you?
The one that never say 'no' to you?
The one that see you differently from other people?
The one that only see your goodness, neglect your badness?

don't get me wrong. I've no intention of getting 'something' across to anyone.
this is just a rhetorical question.

I'm just curious. different people has different answer to that.

found something from here.

*ok, cukup merapek. kne study.

heh.

2011-01-17T00:45:00.000-08:00

People.
Most have two eyes, two ears, a nose, a mouth, etc.
But each and every one of them is unique.
Has unique character. Unique behavior.

..............
I don't understand most of them.
I just, couldn't.

haih.
stupid-too much-being sensitive-thoughts.

oh, yeah.

2011-01-15T17:00:00.000-08:00

I just remembered, the main point I made this blog few years ago, was so that I can practice in writing in English. but, as you know it, I wrote in Malay more, lately.
=.="

I think it's time for me to get back to writing in English. My English is getting a lil' bit rusty, even though I'm living in the States right now. =.="

Spring semester has just started. So far so good, I guess.
Hopefully, everything will be just fine.

I've just decided not to go back this summer.
I want to at first, but then my mom said my dad might have to undergo an operation on something. Besides, they are also planning to do Umrah this year.
So, I'm not going to ask for money for the flight ticket as they need it for more important things. I guess I can be patience for one more year. I hope.

well, on the bright side, maybe I can go somewhere during the summer break. I can go to the Midwest games. and maybe, to NY or Canada.
but all of that need money. I really need to get a job right now. haih.

sweet talk

2011-01-07T00:14:00.000-08:00

knaper aku mudah terpedaya ngan sweet talk atau dalam erti kata lain, pujuk rayu?
wait, bukan terpedaya, mudah simpati mungkin?
haih.
aku jenis yg agak berhati-hati jugok dalam konon2 percaya tuh.
*heh. aper yg aku merapek nih.

haih. dpt gene dr abah nih. dia senang jer beli klau ader mna2 salesman approach dia. sama ah ngan aku.
bkn sbb aper, kesian tgk org tuh berusaha sngt nk jual.
"kira sedekah laa" kata abah.
but, klau sumer org berfikiran cam abah, kaya dowh salesman tuh.
plng mahal kne masa freshie. hilang $150 klau x silap.
dh pompuan tu duk pegang tgn aku sruh beli. pastu x berkesan pun produk tuh. huargh.

tapi skrang aku x lose any money pun. just, big possibility I'll hurt someone's feeling even though I never have the intention to do so.

is this sympathy a good thing, or a bad thing?

haiz. why did you even popped back into my life?

part 1 - Busch Garden, Tampa, FL

2011-01-04T20:43:00.000-08:00

ok, yg thanksgiving x tulis lg, dh nk cter pasal winter break. uhuk.
malas nk cter pasal thanksgiving. dh lapuk sngt dh. hihi
sebelum sampai Tampa ni ader gak singgah tmpat lain.
Alabama habuk pun tarak. kampung gler. ceit.
kalau nk balik kampung ke Alabama amat sesuai dgr lagu 'Sweet Home Alabama' tuh.
Pastu singgah Panama City. ni ok ah. g pantai jap. cantik jugak pantai kt sini. tp air sejuk nak mampos. x dapek ah nk berenang2 katak dlm laut tuh.
main bola sket, amek gambar banyak2, pastu chow.

cut to the main point, kt Tampa ni kterorg nyer main target: pegi Busch Garden.
tehee.
if you want to know more, just click on the rides' name.

SheiKra.

   omg, this the best ride, so far. ader 2,200 feet, 90 degree drop. got on
       this for 2 times. The 1st time, got on front row bebeh. awesome. sangat2
       x sesuai ntuk mereka yg lemah semangat and takut ketinggian.
       meh tgk aper yg aku tgk masa naik ride tuh.
       yes, aku duduk front row. cuak gak masa it stopped for a while before
   the drop.

   2. Stanley Falls Flume
       ok, ni ride budak kecik kot. agak hampeh. antara water rides kt sini. naik
       naik sbb alang2 in the way. dh bayar mahal2 kan, naik jer ah. basah sket
       baju naik nih. haih. x yah tunjuk ah naik ni camner. haha

   3. Kumba
       ni roller coaster biasa jer. tp byk gak pusing. agak pening la. pas turun tu
       rasa terhuyung hayang sket jalan. sket jer ah.
       nak experience gak? lai laaaaiii.

   4. Phoenix
       yg ni agak cuak. dia cam, naik atas kapal, pusing2. but, dia bley cam,
       slow and then stop when you're upside down at the peak. ceit.
   spt biasa, klik kalau nak tgk :P

   5. Scorpion
       roller coaster biasa jep.
   meh duk front row.

   6. Serengeti Train
       yang nih naik train ntuk tgk haiwan yg ader kt situ jer. kterorg naik, then
       tido. haha. pancit2. recharge kejap kan.

   7. Montu
       ni roller coaster biasa gak, but with a little twist. seat dia lain sket. the
       seats are attached at the head part. so dia nyer rail kt atas.
   I was lucky to got on front seat :D

   8. Gwazi
       wooden roller coaster. I made a mistake when I underestimated this ride.
       ingtkan x takut sngt. bley chill jer naik. skali amek ko. pening kepala kene
       goncang. camni ah aku kene goncang.

   9. Timbuktu 4D theatre
       ni tgk wayang jer, tp 4D. aper 4D tu? haa, tgk movie 3D, but ader effect
       kter bley experience. cam yg ni aku tgk cter pirates, mana part yg cam,
       ader water splash ke, aku kne splash ngan air gak. mna dtg ntah air tuh.
       basah sket tudung. ceit.

10. Congo River Rapids
       ni antara water rides kt situ jugak. naik 2 kali sbb yg 1st, dillot x smpat
       naik. yg ni basah lencun. dh la naik masa cam dh nk gelap. sejuk. =.="

11. Tanganyika Tidal Wave
        water rides jugok. and yes, makin lencun. haih.

pastu balik hotel jalan kaki as hotel agak dekat. parking situ mahal. tp x braper nk dkt jugok. dlm 1 batu. masing2 menggigil sbb basah lencun, sejuk.
tamat la pengembaraan kami kt Tampa. sok sambung lg.

p.s: nak letak gmbo pun malas. haih

cekik darah.

2010-12-19T03:21:00.000-08:00

Cuti2 ni, bnde random jer wat.
Td pegi womak(Wallmart) and makan Ihop pkul 2 pg. balik pkul 5 pg.
alang2 tunggu subuh terus ah.

International House of Pancake.

tp ni aku x puas ati nih. makan kt Ihop td, order 2 eggs, hash browns ngan A pancake. hot chocolate skali.
smpi2 ader 3 eggs, 3 pancakes, ngan hashbrown.
heh. ok xper, mkn jer ah.
dh mkn2, open story sumer, nk bayar.
braper aku kne? $13.
=.="
de heekkkk. cekik darah btul. mkn sitar or india lg kenyang la weeeyyyy.
dh la service cam haper. lmbt sumer.
huargh.

pegi womak, beli roti, jalan2 main ngan patung baby yg menakutkan wat pick-a-boo, jerit2 tgh jalan sumer, hbs $20 lbh. ceit.

haih. time cuti ni bahaya gak. nanti wat bnde yg sangat sangat random.

feeling feeling, go away.

2010-12-16T00:58:00.000-08:00

I seriously don't know what exactly I'm feeling right now.
I'm fine. I'm pretty darn sure I'm fine.
But why sometimes, he just, popped in my head?
It's kinda annoying. gggrrrr.

Go away. You aren't suppose to be in my ~~fuckin'~~ mind anymore.

It takes time. I know. sigh.

I just haven't met you yet.

2010-12-14T22:11:00.001-08:00

This song cheer me up. :)

I saw it coming.

2010-12-14T02:44:00.000-08:00

x tau la rasa aper skrang nih. nk kata neutral, x jugak.
nak kata sdey, maybe la, sket. tipu la klau aku ckp "I'm totally fine". saper x sdey kan.
maybe full effect blum sampai lg nih.

I saw it coming. I really saw it coming. dh rasa cam something wrong somewhere, we disagreed on lots of things, got in fights for no reason, etc. I guess I kept denying it. I still tried to hold on. Well, apparently, I'm the only one that's been doing that.

Long distance relationship is not as easy as it seems.
I've said that, hundreds of times before we started off. I thought you really understand that. Well, maybe.
Then you just can't handle it anymore.
Just, video call, call, sms, wall posts, messsages, weren't enough.

Suddenly I remember the article about 'human communications'(or something like that, don't remember) and the debates on how technologies have affects it, maybe during PAVE. hurm. random.

We're cool. We've been friends since we were in elementary school and we'll always be.

Oh well, HE had planned everything, perfectly for me. I just need to keep moving forward.

this song suits the situation.

Its not easy.

2010-12-13T23:46:00.000-08:00

heh. never thought it would bother me this much.

maybe I don't really show it. I'm not quite sure how.
I miss you. quite much.
sigh.

but it don't really matter now.
you're gone.

kureng sejam.

2010-12-11T12:12:00.000-08:00

dalam 50 minit lg nk jawab kertas final pertama, Math 175, and aper aku buat? menulis kt sini jap. heh
dh x larat dah. even though rasa cam x prepare sepenuhnyer, tp dh concentrated sngt dh information yg ader dalam kepala skrang. Chapter 17, please be nice. aku paham sket2 jer, ingat formula. huargh.
btw, hasrat nak beli lens 50mm sblum pegi Florida tidak kesampaian. kuchiwa2. xder rezeki. eh2, baru prasan, dlm seminggu jer lg nk pegi trip tuh.

btw, wat pertama kali nyer, aku berjaya deactivate facebook. haha
dah 12 jam dah deactivate. fuh fuh. berjaya gler.
nak activate pas exam bio la kot. ari Jumaat, 17hb. seminggu woooo. mlm td pun dh tempting gler nk activate balik. haha

okeh, dah, belek2 wat kali terakhir. wish me luck. really need it.

lawak lawak.

2010-12-09T01:02:00.000-08:00

tgh x bley tdo and malas nk study nih, tiba2 tringt pulok zaman skolah dlu. haih. lawak2.
maybe ni sbb aku tiba2 tringt ader seseorg cter pasal adik dia yg x nak stay kt skolah asrama penuh, and dia sngt2 la x sokong aper yg adik dia nak tuh. "kalau dia keluar asrama, bley ke dia dpt result bagus?" kata beliau la.

heh. aku sengih jer sensorang sbb aku dh prnh rasa aper yg adik beliau rasa. sangat2 paham. kalau dah 2 sekolah asrama aku pegi pastu keluar, nak kata aper lg kan. SMK Seri Rompin and MRSM Jasin. haih. sumpah lawak bler tringt balik.

aku x bley terima hidup kt asrama sbb aku rasa sngt2 trkongkong. dan penat. dan of course, homesick.
"ala homesick, lama2 ok la tuh. aku 2 tahun baru hilang homesick"
yeah, maybe. tp sy x seperti anda, ok jer mnjalani kehidupan seharian di asrama tuh. aku? aku rasa sepanjang duk asrama, ari2 aku tdo. dr mula kelas pkul 8 sampai hbs kelas. aku sendiri x phm knaper aku sebegitu penat. kalau x tdo pun, x masuk sepatah haram aper ckgu ajar.

kalau sekolah bagus, aku hampeh, x guna jugok.
dipendekkan cerita, masa Form 1, kt SMK Seri Rompin tu, aku tahan sebulan jer and Form 4 kat MRSM Jasin, aku tahan 2 bulan. nk mulakan hdp balik pastu mmg agak susah. yer ah, dh dgn banggayer berpindah ke skolah 'lebih bagus' pastu dtg balik. per cer? ayat yg plng best yg aku dgr masa aku kuar MRSM tuh, ader org ckp, "dpt MRSM Jasin, keluar? nak jadi aper budak nih?self-destruct nmanyer tuh"
heh. xper, chill jer. pd aku x penting skolah tuh. yg penting org nyer sendiri.

tiba2 rasa malas nk bercerita lg pulok. sambung esok lusa ah.

huh.

2010-12-09T00:18:00.000-08:00

first time I heard this song, I really like it, without really pay any attention to the lyrics. but now that I had, it's really, weird. talking about 2 people that loves hurting each other; kinda like, masochist. heh.
camni pun bley jadi lagu. =.="
but I really like Eminem's part 'coz he rap with full emotion, like, I can really feel what he feels.
btw, I'm suppose to be studying for finals. omg. why am I soooooo lazy right now? ggggrrrr.

finals.

2010-12-05T22:15:00.000-08:00

I want to write about my thanksgiving break in Gatlinburg but I don't really have the time now.
Finals are getting nearer and I'm getting lazier. sigh.
On the bright side, Florida on winter break baby! woot woot!

not another tipical thursday night.

2010-11-17T17:44:00.000-08:00

It happened last week, I think.
But I only have time to write about it today.
My 'sleep cycle' is way off track since, I don't know, a month ago, maybe.
So, on that night, 3 o'clock (well, morning, to be exact)
I was lying on my bed with my laptop on.

Then someone opened the door. There was this man, entered my room. White, American.
I was shocked, thinking, who the hell is he and what the fuk is going on.
He was drunk. I think. He must be.
All I can do was, just, watched him.
I said, "You're in the wrong room." and hoping he would get out of the room when he saw me, someone that he don't know, in the room.
He was like, "oh."
Then he closed the door.

I started to panic. But, I didn't really do anything.
I don't know. I was just, shocked.
Then he walked slowly towards me. I woke up, sat on my bed, and just, looked him in the eyes. He did the same too.
It looked like he wanted to lay on my bed, next to me. =.="
I kept asking, "What are you doing? Are you okay? Do you know in who's room you're in now?"
He was like, didn't really respond to me. All he said was "yeah.." and kept looking into my eyes.
He was really close to my bed.
It gets really weird then. He was like, searching for something at the end of my bed.
Why would he be searching for something in a room he never been in before?

"What are you looking for?"

"Bathroom"

"Oh, not in here. Come, I'll show you where," while thinking what the fuk. =.="

I got off my bed, walked towards the door, opened it, got outside, and he followed me.

"The bathroom is there, can you see the water cooler?"

"Oh. Thank you"

"No problem. Are you sure you're okay?"

Then he just, walked away. I quickly got back into my room and LOCKED the door.
Only then, I really panic. omg. Did what happened, really happened?
Only then, I thought, what if he was drunk and throwing up everywhere.
What if he made a fuss in my room. What if? What if?

But one thing that amazed me is, how calm I was when that happened. I don't know. I was just, really shocked and speechless.

Moral of the story: Don't forget to lock the door.

cool.

2010-11-15T17:40:00.001-08:00

3D hologram FTW!

Now I'm addicted to this song. =.="

basketball

2010-11-14T02:27:00.000-08:00

even though I've been here for almost a year and a half, I just went to my first basketball game last Friday.
Vanderbilt vs. Presbyterian.
88 - 47.
Nice work Dores!

I forgot to bring my camera. =.="
deng.
anyway, it was a really good game.
Basketball is a really fast game. you won't get bored.
But, you will, if the gap of the points is too far away.
Brad Tinsley was amazing! #1

I learned few of those cheers.
overall, it was very fun.
I'm thinking to go to the next game, if I can :)

people

2010-11-11T17:24:00.000-08:00

people will only remember your wrong doings. most of the times.
so true.
including myself.

it's a mean cycle. really vicious one.

so, make less, wrong doings.

everything happened for a reason.

2010-11-11T02:01:00.000-08:00

I know. It's a cliché sentence, to make yourself feel better.
and yeah, I know it doesn't work all the times.
but hey, if it comes from someone like your mom, it does helps you feel a lot better.
I don't remember the last time I cried this much. omg.
I didn't cried this much when I'm homesick too.
But man, I feel a lot better after that.

Obstacle like this made you reflect on yourself more.
I tried my best to make everyone happy, well, I think I did.
some people didn't feel that way.
I tried, maybe not hard enough.
blergh.
It's hard to satisfy everyone.

If my presence will only make you feel, burdened, troubled, I'll step back.
I don't want to trouble anyone.
I gotta admit. I'm not a fighter. I'm a quitter.
I'm maybe strong physically, but I'm not emotionally.
like, seriously.

Hey, life sucks sometimes. Suck it up. Move forward.
Experiences will made you stronger and become more mature. I guess.

Congratulations.

2010-11-10T22:13:00.000-08:00

Congratulations for being such a jerk, Aini.
*clapping.

I'm the bad guy. I always am.
I don't know. Maybe I'm born to this world just to trouble everyone.
To be a burden to everyone.
Sorry. I can't promise I won't do it again.
Maybe I will. without myself willing it to happen.

All I can say is I'm sorry. I know that's not enough.

p.s: I'm surprised of how many people would read this blog. It's nothing. It's just a place for me to talk to myself.

confused.

2010-11-10T19:08:00.001-08:00

I can't tell who's my friend and who's not anymore.

heh

2010-11-09T05:07:00.000-08:00

I'm tired of taking care of other people's feeling.
Who would take care of mine?

This is why I prefer to do things on my own.
I won't troubled anyone and people won't troubled me too.
I won't hurt anyone and people won't hurt me.

But no one can live alone. I really wish I can.

Maybe it will be a lot easier if I'm a psychopath.
I don't have to deal with this feeling as I don't have any.

But then, I'll start killing people, just like in the movies.

zaman kegelapan.

2010-11-08T15:29:00.000-08:00

skrang ni serius zaman kegelapan.
semakin lama, semakin malap kegemilangan dan kecemerlangan yg ader since skolah rendah. chewah.
kalau ingat2 balik, bahagia nyer la masa sekolah rendah dulu.
main2 jer keje.
sekolah menengah pun, main2 gak lg. tp kureng sket ah.
tapi undergrad nih. fuh. main2 jer, habis ah.
merundum.
serabut serai hidup skrang. haaaiiihhhh.
guitar dh berhabuk dh. x sempat nk main. psp tu dh jd pekasam dlm laci.

kuchiwa gler dgn math nih.
professor main peranan besar jugak la. salah pilih prof, kalau x dpt nk adapt ngan dia, habis.
aku lg sanggup amek kelas ngan Prof. Pamella Pigg yg test dia susah nak mampos tp dlm tiap kelas dia, mmg kompom paham.
kenapa la dia x ajar 175. haih
Prof aku skrang macam haper ntah. ader masa paham aper yg dia ajar.
tapi mostly x make sense aper yg dia ckp. x pahaaaaaaaammmmm.
huuaarrgghhh.
dah terlambat. dh nk hbs sem dh. redah jer ah.
yikuzo!

fuk

2010-11-03T23:25:00.001-07:00

that's all I want to say.
fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuukkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

..

2010-11-02T01:22:00.000-07:00

dear BSCI 110A,
why are you being so hard to me?
open up, let me in.
let me understand you. let me engage in your life.
you too Math 175.
I really need you both to cooperate with me.
SPAN100, we've been getting along really great, but it seems like you're avoiding me. Trying to be further away from me. Why?
ChBE161, we had a pretty smooth start and please, stay with me.
Don't leave me too far behind. I'm trying my best to catch up.

love, xoxo.

nak cuti lg.

2010-10-28T01:37:00.000-07:00

lbh kurang 3 minggu lagi. Thanksgiving break.
dpt la dlm seminggu lebih cuti.
Tapi x bley nk enjoy sngt cuti nih. naik cuti, pas dlm 1-2 minggu, final pulok.
But, cuti tetap cuti. keh3.
at least aku nk amek 4 ari. 3 ari nk pegi cabin kat Gatlinburg.
duit xder nih. haih.
cam cari pasal jer nih. hik3.
makan roti la aku masa pegi Florida bln 12 tu kang.

Halloween

2010-10-24T04:01:00.000-07:00

It's that time of the year, in US.

Well, not really, yet. Es de 24 de octubre.

But, the haunted houses are open now on weekend.

and, for the sake of 'wanting to experience the American culture', me and my friends decided to go to one of those haunted house. and we chose Monster Mountain as it is 'outdoor'.

15 USD. yes, it is pretty expensive, but hey, let's just give it a try.

At the end, that 15 USD was not worth it.

Maybe it was our fault. Masuk skali 10 orang, mmg la x takut kan. Orang depan jer la kena kaw2. Orang belakang relax jer (aku antaranyer la).

I gotta say, setting memang gempak. ader cam, lain2 bahagian. It's outdoor, but then you have to get in a few 'sections' with different theme. Por ejemplo, jln2 sikit dekat luar, then masuk satu umah kecik. Then keluar, jalan sikit lg kt luar, masuk dalam bangunan kecik lain. Setiap 'umah kecik' lain2 theme. Lebih kurang gitu la.

Among favorite, ader satu part tuh cam, bahagian dapur. Shoot, bau busuk dowh. Then ader pak cik gemok nak mampos, pegang parang or something, siap costume, make up sumer, duk dalam dapur tuh. Pastu dia cam, takut2kan la kan (d'uh).

Even though kter tau tu mmg org biasa jer. But dude, suasana tu serious seram.Sumpah pak cik tu really look like someone that will butcher innocent people. haha

Then ader mamat yang pegang chainsaw tuh. Yang nih lawak campur takut. Masa ni jalan kt luar. Then dgr bunyi cam, orang buat bunyi burung tuh. Memang obvious ah tu orang yg wat. Then one of us reply ah, wat bunyi burung tu jugak. "came from there" - sambil tunjuk kt ader cam, 1 pintu. So, sumer orang cam, concentrate kat pintu tuh, diam jer. Tiba2, mamat yang again, siap costume and make up sumer, keluar, pegang chainsaw, dia hidupkan chainsaw tu and gelak jahat. WTF. orang kt depan lari dah. Mamat tu btul2 depan aku. I really hate the sound of that chainsaw.

Ader gak satu part yang, cam dlm hospital. Bau pun bau hospital.

Ader clown, of course la kan. That's cliché.

Clown yang comel main "pick-a-boo". haha

Ader cam budak2 ajak main. "Come on in. Let's play" dengan suara yang comel but seram at the same time. Heh, nah. I think I'll passed. :P

Ader cam, rumah yang so fukin' messy. Aku rasa dia mmg guna laundry yang x basuh selama sebulan, letak kat situ. And toilet yang tak flush. =.="
And of course, dalam sumer tuh, ader dinding yang covered with blood.

Tapi part paling x bley blah, kterorg sesat jap dalam maze yang x braper maze tuh. Haunted house of course la one way. But then ader satu pintu tu cam, x rupa pintu. Kterorg ingtkan ader jalan lain kot. Sampai kterorg keluar ikut satu lubang nih, ngam2 jer badan aku. Aku dah rasa jalan tu x logic as omputih kan besar2, mna muat lubang nih. Rupanyer kterorg dh off track. So, kira kterorg masuk blakang takbir la. "Guys, you got the wrong way" kata salah seekor 'hantu' yang ader kat situ, dengan selambanyer.

Then kterorg masuk balik kt where we suppose to be, through one of the holes that they used to scared people; to make one of those, sudden appereance. LOL. Pastu dah x takut dah. Dah jumper ngan hantu yang chill jer. LOLOL.

Sumer 'hantu2' kat situ berjaya gak la buat aku terkejut for a split second. Then it came to me, 'chill jer dowh. orang biasa jer sumer tuh'.

keh3
dekat 30-40 minit gak la dalam tuh.

Oh, ader 1 part tu ader patung hantu yang rupa cam, hantu pocong. What the fuk.

Balik, singgah Waffle House makan waffle. keh3.

Bler pikir balik, kalau masuk dalam tuh cam, 5 orang skali ke maximum, memang cuak gler kot.

Ader aku dgr pasal 1 haunted house ni. katanyer rating no.1.

Torture Factory. Ni pic from the website:

*tak rasa terkejut beruk ke kalau keluar dari pintu tu, nampak bende nih?

Teringin gak. tapi ntah bley sampai ke x. duit xder dah nih sebenarnyer. kuh3.

Ok, dh pkul 6 pg. Tdo2. Subuh dulu.

spanish, japanese, chinese.

2010-10-21T21:28:00.000-07:00

Don't you think it's cool to know many languages?
I do. I'm learning spanish right now.
I'm thinking to take japanese class next year and chinese class on senior year.
I'm not expecting to get an A for chinese, so, better I take it as pass/fail course. I just want to learn chinese for fun and to fulfill the open electives requirement.
I'm thinking to take arabic too to fulfill the liberal arts core elective requirement.
But then, I don't have the time to do so.
It's like I'm minoring in languages. HAHA

p.s: it's fun when you can understand other languages. Right now, if I hear anyone talk in spanish, I can actually understand at least some of it, then I'll just smile to myself :P
Spanish is like, the second language here in US.
No one would expect that a malay girl could understand spanish. I could :D

ok, x bley kot.

2010-10-20T01:30:00.000-07:00

baru 3 bulan berlalu, aku balik kampung bln may sampai bln julai yg lps.

tp dh pikir nk balik jer nih, per cer?

cam x jd jer plan x nk blk thn dpn.

kalau bley nak balik ah. x kira la missed Midwest games and senior farewell party tuh. yg pnting dpt blk. sebulan pun jd aahhh. paling lama ah nih aku bley berthn x balik kampung setahun. x bley more than that.

mak pun seboleh2 nak aku balik gak.

I'm not saying anything but, diorang agak dh berumur. Selagi panjang umur diorang, aku nk spent time ngan diorg la kan. takut jugak bler dipikir2.

Ya Allah, panjangkan umur mereka, amiinn.

insyaAllah ah. hopefully bley dpt keje masa sem Spring nanti. ader la duit nak balik. and nk kne beli corelle yg diidamkan mak tuh. kuh3.

ok, dh decide, kalau boleh, and I'll try my best ntuk membolehkannyer, aku nk balik gak thn dpn.

ok, sedap sket dh rasa hati. study elok2 yer aini.

p.s: tiba2 tringt masa kt mrsm dlu, antara bnde yg decide aku nk blah dr situ ialah aku tgk kalendar and realized aku x bley balik kampung ntuk 3 bulan. now aku kne thn at least sethn. huiyoo.

It's not the end of the world

2010-10-17T14:36:00.000-07:00

That was a really hard push to the ground.
Life was never meant to be easy.
But I never thought it would be this hard.
I almost give up, entirely.

But then I thought "hey, it's not the end of the world. You didn't get an A. there's a chance you'll fail this but hey, there's always someone else out there that has a bigger problem."
If I give up now, things would be worse. I need to take control of the situation.

I don't know how many entries on my blog saying I'm down, disappointed, etc

Too many, I guess.

Those need to stop.

So, get up, get that dirt off your shoulder, and move forward.
What has happened, happened. I can't turn back the time.
Move forward.

I feel like I'm 'recharged' now after 3 days of hibernating. :D

stop it

2010-10-16T12:50:00.000-07:00

I need to stop this bad habit of thinking too much.
It's troublesome. really.

hopeless.

2010-10-14T00:39:00.000-07:00

.................................
whatever the end product is, I'll never be the same ever again.

=.="

2010-10-13T02:03:00.000-07:00

ok, even though fall break = 4 days, I'm really looking forward for it.
my plans:
sleep. sleep.
watch marathons of House and CSI.
Saw 3D.
Picnic.
sleep some more.
tocar la guitarra. tp Fuad nk guitar dia balik dh. =.="
Halo, kalau tersesat ke bilik atok.

aku rasa x berbaloi nk pegi jalan jauh2 fall break nih. 4 ari jer pun. tdo lg sedap.
ntah kenapa rasa nak post video nih. aku tertarik ngan arctic monkeys ni dulu sbb nama dia cam best jer. now they are among my favorites la :D

ajal maut di tangan tuhan

2010-10-11T14:29:00.000-07:00

Baru2 ini tgh kecoh pasal tragedi 10.10.10 kt lebuhraya PLUS tuh.
aq pun tau pas call mak, mak ader cter.
Then ader org post video kt fb. org yg rakam tu mmg antara org yg first sampai site tu la. Accident tu berlaku dkt pkul 7 mlm kan. dlm video tu agak terang ah coz x gelap lg.
MasyaAllah. Mayat bergelimpangan.
Bawah bas yg terbalik tu ader tangan org terjulur. Jalan raya tu basah bukan sbb air tp darah. Ader mayat tu kepala dia hancur. Then ader 1 yg blakang badan dia cam disiat.
Huuuu, ngeri2.
sampai skrang x bley nk buang imej2 yg aq tgk kt video tuh. deng. berani lg pegi tengok. time tgk tu ok lg. nk tdo kang trbayang2. =.="
But, it really makes me wonder, camner la bas yg besar gedabak tu bley melambung, terbalik, then landing atas 2 kereta.
cuba bayangkan cam dalam movie yg dirakam dr different scene.
yg bas ni bawak laju nk potong keta kt dpn, then terbabas. ok, org dlm bas tu sure ah dh panic sumer. tapi yg kt arah bertentangan tuh. tgh rilek bawak keta, chill jer happy nk balik kampung, tiba2, bedebak. bas ader kt atas.
Wallahualam.
x dapat nk bayangkan.
kadang2 bgus gak tgk video camni. rasa insaf. kalau dh ajal, kt mna2 and bler2 masa pun bley berlaku.

T.T

welcome back LP

2010-10-11T00:00:00.001-07:00

I've been LP's fan since I am 10, if I'm not mistaken.
and I did memorized 'In The End' song at that time.

@.@

2010-10-10T03:36:00.000-07:00

Fall break.
3 tests between us; Bioscience, Spanish and Math.
I can't wait to meet you.
My plan for the fall break: spend lots of quality time with my lovely, comfy bed.
We did that on regular basis, but, we're gonna spend some special time on fall break like watching House marathon or maybe, starts watching korean drama, NOT.

please fall break, hurry up.

adrenaline demand

2010-10-07T22:17:00.000-07:00

sy nk naik nih

dan ini

dan semua yg ader kt Cedar Point.
tp keadaan x mengizinkan skrang. kuh3.

sabar aini. lain kali yer.

October

2010-10-07T14:06:00.000-07:00

It's 7th of October.

Fall break next week; only 4 days.

Thanksgiving break next month;about a week.

and about 2 and a half months to winter break.

I'm already looking forward to winter break.

por que I'll be joining the trip to Florida :)

but I'm pretty worried right now as my bank account doesn't look so good.

*cough2

It'll be enough for the expenses but not included shopping.

=.="

last resort: ketuk abah nanti. kuh3.

p.s: 2 more open houses this weekend. last ones! :D

just another weekend, with a little twist.

2010-10-04T00:10:00.000-07:00

Friday

open house at kak shima's house.

menu:nasi tomato, ayam masak merah, murtabak, laksa penang, lots of kuih raya.

thank you so much :)

my plate.

laksa penang

murtabak in the making

Saturday.

brunch at Rand. went to Centennial Park for the Culture Festival.

wore a kimono. speak spanish to a mexican guy. wore a mexico hat and played the mexico guitar. hanging out at the Parthenon. Ice skating. tapau some shrimp satay and shrimp tom yum at Satay. planned a prank on Mek Cha; it's her birthday on 3rd October. we only planned this 2 hourse before midnight because she was 'gedik', told a friend that she was sad as no one wished her birthday. dude, it wasn't 3rd October yet here in the US. of course we didn't wish you yet. lol. I made a special belacan mixture water.

she was soaking wet and covered with flour. and it was under 20 degree celcius that mid night. keh keh

in kimono

mariachi

the Parthenon

battle of the titans? hik3

happy birthday mek cha

Sunday.

open house at kak amy's house.

menu: nasi ayam, laksa johor, nasi impit, rendang, lemang, satay., kuah kacang, roti jala, kari ayam, kuih sagu, air sirap, and of course, kuih raya.

went to an asian restaurant at night.

menu: sweet and sour tilapia, spicy red snapper, fried squid, mixed vege, seafood tom yam, and thai tea.

note: I never felt this full since I got here. haha
thank yoouuuu :)

having my satay :P

what's left of the red snapper and tilapia

it was so much fun indeed. now, I got 2 tests this week and a homework that due on Monday. back to reality.
p.s: 2 more open houses next weekend. yes yes.