.cinta monyet.

pengumuman: aq sekarang dlm mood bahasa ibunda angkat.haha

btw, berbalik kpd tajuk.

aq ader la berkunjung ke slh 1 shopping mall di JB. ader la nmpk kelibat dak2 skolah. biasa la tuh.

sekali mata aq terpaut kt couple nih.

aq perhati jer gelagat diorg.

maybe umur diorg, plng tua pun form 3 laaa.

cam syok bermadu kasih jer. main cuit2, la.

si encik tuh duk cuit pipi si cik, konon2 nyer nk bertentang mata.

pegang2 tangan.

It was so fuckin' annoying, ok.

klu ko dh kawin, aq x ksh la ko nk wat aper pun.

ni ngan pki baju skolah, umur bru 15, dh menggatal. haih.

sumpah, geli nk mampos tgk gelagat diorg.

bler pikir2 balik, aq bukan la skema sngt, but, masa skolah dlu xder pun aq trtarik nk ber couple2 nih. ntah.

tringt plak masa skolah rndh, ader dak darjah 1, yg naik van yg sama ngan aq, berlari2 anak selepas tmt waktu persekolahan.

"kak ain, kak ain!sy dpt surat la!" dia hulurkan surat tu kt aq dgn eager nyer.

aq belek2 surat tuh. nmpk cam, kertas yg dikoyak dr buku latihan bahasa inggeris, bahagian tgh tuh. so, ader 4 mukasurat, telah dilipat dgn kemas.

aq buka lipatannya dgn cermat, smpi dh fully opened.

ader la dua baris yg ditulis.

"nama saya **********.

saya cintakan awak."

=____________________="

haih. speechless. aq msa drjh 1, tau main kejar2 jer.

budak2 zaman skrang.

kadang2, couple ni mmg x baik ntuk moral.

bkn nk kata aper la kan, aq pun ader gak encik ehem, but still, aq try my best ntuk control relationship nih. Klu nk jumper tuh, jumper jer dh la,lpskn rndu (konon2nyer la :P)

x pyh la nk duk kt tmpt gelap lah, peluk2 la, pegang tngn la..

kaaaaannnn?

merapek.

***********edisi khas bahasa melayu**********

aha, asyik speaking jer kn..sblum ni yer la aq wat blog dlm english nk practice sbnrnyer..

skrang, dh makin hampeh english aq.skali skala, guna la bahasa ibunda plak.

ni bahasa ibunda angkat kot since aq guna shortform, campuq sket2 and bkn bahasa baku. hehe

btw, sdr x sdr dh nk hbs dh cuti aq. ceeessss

haih.skjp jer masa berlalu.

bler imbas kembali, x byk la yg aq wat selain mkn, tdo and mnje2 ngan mak aq.

haha

of course la kn. sethn dowh x mnje2 ngan mak. dh la sblum aq fly dlu, mak aq ader bela cucu dia.

dak tu jer la yg duk mnje2 ngan mak aq.

maybe org akn kutuk aq atas statement nih tp serious, kdng2 aq jeles ngan dak kecik a.k.a cucu mak aq. I mean, dia dok lari2, main2, then dtg kt mak aq, main gesel pipi la, mak aq lambung dia la.

mmg la mak aq ader wat gak kt aq dlu, but, mna nk ingt dowh. haih

bapak aq lg la. siap main lambung2 lg.

gotta admit, aq blk ni agak dimnje kn gak la. dak kecik tuh dah pulang ke pangkuan keluarga beliau di KL, "bg la peluang dak koin nih nk mnje2 ngan mak" kata mak beliau selaku akak aq jugak.

hurm. nk balik US dh keee. haih.

bahagia btul rasa x ngadap buku sepanjang kt tanah air nih. bagai berada di kayangan.

balik ke no.7 most stressful college in US, mati aq.

dh la dok trkial2. haih.

come on aini, jgn main2 daaaahhhh.

stop ah dok explore youtube tuh. haih.

nnti jumper blk Prof.Pamela Pigg yg disayangi.

"Did I boo boo?"

haha. aq suker dia nyer accent. cam koboi pun ader.

aq rsa tu accent org southern ke aper ntah.

tp serious, aq rsa cam x bersedia lg jer nk ngadap balik buku nih.

trauma sem lps hampeh sngt.

tp nk wat camner. nk senang, kne la susah2 dlu kn?

aha, tiba2 tringt perbualan ngan seorg makcik merangkap kwn mak aq yg dtg berkunjung ke rumah.

"anak mak cik amek chemical engineering gak. dia kata susah. x bley nk dpt anugerah dekan pun. biasa2 jer dia. dpt pointer 3.6-3.7"

aq sengihkn ajer. aq pun lbh kureng jer. lg hancus.

but hey, maybe masa depan akn jd lbh ok, if aq stop main2, and fully concentrate ok cik aini?

haha

dh ah merapek.

chiooowwwww~~

.trust.

I just realized something. It's not easy for me to trust people.

And I just realized no one had ever gain my full trust.

The highest would probably be 99%

Never 100%.

Not even him. Not even my family. Why? I have no idea.

Maybe I'm just sick of getting hurt.

Yes, I was once been back stabbed by someone I trust the most.

2 of those 'someone' actually.

Since then, I just, build a barrier between me and other people, I guess.

Being extra cautious.

Maybe some of you think you're close to me, you know everything about me.

Trust me, you don't.

I 'change' according to circumstances, to the people around. I 'blend' in.

I don't think anyone really know me.

I just, don't like to be hurt.

Please, I'm a human being. I'm not psychopath,that won't feel anything.

Sometimes, I wish I'm a psychopath. Unable to feel anything.

angry.

I'm so angry right now. My mom asked me to call one of my niece. I have her number but, people like to change their number, for some reason, I don't get it. Anyway, back to my story, I decided to try call it anyway. Someone pick it up, and she did sound like my niece, and I thought it's really her.

But then, the girl was really harsh and rude. I speak nicely to her, I mean, there is no reason at all to be rude. I really don't like that type of people. If I speak to someone nicely, of course I would expect the same from that person. I mean,there's no reason for you to be rude to people that treat you nicely, right?

Orang berbudi, kita berbahasa.

This is why I said, if people are nice to me, I'll be ten times nicer.

If people are rude or treat me badly, I'll be ten times worse!

So, if you think I'm bad and snobbish, that is because you do the same thing to me first.

Sophomore.

Yes, ladies and gentlemen. I'm now officially in my 2nd year of studying in Vanderbilt University, I guess; since the freshmen had arrived :P

The countdown-thingy on my laptop's screen says I've been home for 37 days now. Wow.

I just realized, I haven't gone out of Johor since 10th of May.

=.="

But, I'm looking forward for my family's vacation next week. Off to Pulau Pangkor :)

Even it'll be just me, my dad and my mom. I'm sure we'll have a blast :)

I'm not really in typing mood right now.

Just feel like, I need to update my blog :P