Its not easy.

heh. never thought it would bother me this much.

maybe I don't really show it. I'm not quite sure how.
I miss you. quite much.
sigh.

but it don't really matter now.
you're gone.

kureng sejam.

dalam 50 minit lg nk jawab kertas final pertama, Math 175, and aper aku buat? menulis kt sini jap. heh
dh x larat dah. even though rasa cam x prepare sepenuhnyer, tp dh concentrated sngt dh information yg ader dalam kepala skrang. Chapter 17, please be nice. aku paham sket2 jer, ingat formula. huargh.
btw, hasrat nak beli lens 50mm sblum pegi Florida tidak kesampaian. kuchiwa2. xder rezeki. eh2, baru prasan, dlm seminggu jer lg nk pegi trip tuh.

btw, wat pertama kali nyer, aku berjaya deactivate facebook. haha
dah 12 jam dah deactivate. fuh fuh. berjaya gler. 
nak activate pas exam bio la kot. ari Jumaat, 17hb. seminggu woooo. mlm td pun dh tempting gler nk activate balik. haha

okeh, dah, belek2 wat kali terakhir. wish me luck. really need it.

lawak lawak.

tgh x bley tdo and malas nk study nih, tiba2 tringt pulok zaman skolah dlu. haih. lawak2.
maybe ni sbb aku tiba2 tringt ader seseorg cter pasal adik dia yg x nak stay kt skolah asrama penuh, and dia sngt2 la x sokong aper yg adik dia nak tuh. "kalau dia keluar asrama, bley ke dia dpt result bagus?" kata beliau la.

heh. aku sengih jer sensorang sbb aku dh prnh rasa aper yg adik beliau rasa. sangat2 paham. kalau dah 2 sekolah asrama aku pegi pastu keluar, nak kata aper lg kan. SMK Seri Rompin and MRSM Jasin. haih. sumpah lawak bler tringt balik.

aku x bley terima hidup kt asrama sbb aku rasa sngt2 trkongkong. dan penat. dan of course, homesick. 
"ala homesick, lama2 ok la tuh. aku 2 tahun baru hilang homesick"
yeah, maybe. tp sy x seperti anda, ok jer mnjalani kehidupan seharian di asrama tuh. aku? aku rasa sepanjang duk asrama, ari2 aku tdo. dr mula kelas pkul 8 sampai hbs kelas. aku sendiri x phm knaper aku sebegitu penat. kalau x tdo pun, x masuk sepatah haram aper ckgu ajar.

kalau sekolah bagus, aku hampeh, x guna jugok.
dipendekkan cerita, masa Form 1, kt SMK Seri Rompin tu, aku tahan sebulan jer and Form 4 kat MRSM Jasin, aku tahan 2 bulan. nk mulakan hdp balik pastu mmg agak susah. yer ah, dh dgn banggayer berpindah ke skolah 'lebih bagus' pastu dtg balik. per cer? ayat yg plng best yg aku dgr masa aku kuar MRSM tuh, ader org ckp, "dpt MRSM Jasin, keluar? nak jadi aper budak nih?self-destruct nmanyer tuh"
heh. xper, chill jer. pd aku x penting skolah tuh. yg penting org nyer sendiri.


tiba2 rasa malas nk bercerita lg pulok. sambung esok lusa ah.



 

huh.

first time I heard this song, I really like it, without really pay any attention to the lyrics. but now that I had, it's really, weird. talking about 2 people that loves hurting each other; kinda like, masochist. heh. 
camni pun bley jadi lagu. =.="
but I really like Eminem's part 'coz he rap with full emotion, like, I can really feel what he feels.
btw, I'm suppose to be studying for finals. omg. why am I soooooo lazy right now? ggggrrrr.

finals.

I want to write about my thanksgiving break in Gatlinburg but I don't really have the time now.
Finals are getting nearer and I'm getting lazier. sigh.
On the bright side, Florida on winter break baby! woot woot!