youngest

orang selalu kata anak bongsu ni untung.
dimanjakan lebih. blah blah. 
tapi tahukah anda, kami sentiasa di-compared dengan adik-beradik lain?

both good and bad. 

good:
"camne sekolah? grade camne?"
"biasa2 jer. uhuk"
"biasa2? abang awak tu haaaa. blah blah blah. awak mesti buat lagi baik!takkan la x boleh nak beat abang awak tuh!"

bad:
"dah nampak kan akibatnyer? jangan la awak buat camtu"


I can definitely feel the weight getting heavier, each year I get older.
I'm trying my best. I am. 
Both academically and in life.
I definitely am.

aku update blog bile emo jer. 
and skrang aku tgh emo. 


blog aku, sukeati aku ah nk guna ntuk ape kan. lol
I don't even care ade org baca ke x blog hampeh nih. 
I just want to get something of my chest.


penatla care pasal someone yg aku pun x sure dia kisah ke x pasal hidup mati aku. 
but I just can't help it. 


nak jd feelingless please.
so aku x bazirkan dasar belas kasihan aku ni kt org yg x sepatutnye. 
penatla emo sorang2. 


maybe I should stop keeping everything inside.


semua bnde la aku simpan.
I'm not good at 'letting it out'

maybe that's why sometimes I just, 'boom'
and the timer is ticking right now. 


tick tock.

Balik Kampung bebeh.

Total 23.6 hours of flight.
fuh.
bergolek la aku dlm flight tuh.
nanti singgah Dubai bebeeehhhh. dah beli tiket at the top Burj Khalifa bebeeehh.


tapi peliknye aku x berape excited pun skrang nih. berape jam jer lg nih.
belum feeling kut. lol

I'm coming home. coming home. 
Tell the world I'm coming home. 


4 days to go bebeh. get excited. 


*masalahnye aku yg x excited nih. =.="
malas nak kemaasss. bahagia nye golek2, makan tdo jeerr :3

I'm learning to accept the fact that I can't afford to have everything that I want.
I have to choose wisely on what should I spend.


It's not that I don't want to. 
I'd love to. 
but I chose not to, in order to get something else. 


I've spent enough on myself. 
just this one time, I want to spend some money for my family. 

I need to put my wish list on hold. 


hopefully, they'll love the things that I bought :3