jyeeaahhh
or maybe, xde la emo sangat. just rasa nk membebel sorg2
these thoughts that I have lately, have been on my mind since earlier this year.
I've no idea why.
I've been thinking about how lucky I am to be where I am right now.
I'm really thankful to be raised by my parents.
I know everything that I need to know, enough so I can make the right judgement.
how lucky I am to be growing up in an environment that won't influence me in doing any bad stuff like smoking.
heck, I even lived in Felda where people have stereotyped that budak Felda can be pretty 'bad'.
I went to ordinary-everyday-school.
Both elementary and high school.
and I turned up to be pretty well.
I've been blessed with good friends.
I mean, how many friends would have asked you, 'have you prayed?'
and I really, really appreciate those who have reminded me, countless times.
I know I'm not really that religious. at the very least, I'm trying to keep the basics, on track.
people said 'solat tu tiang agama' for good reasons.
*heck, ter-usrah. HAHA
besides, if I'm thinking of doing something that I know is wrong, I'll automatically think of my parents.
cliche, but it works.
like, 'hey, what would they feel if they know about it'
maybe it's because I've experienced first-hand on what the effects could be on my parents.
I've seen my mom being brokenhearted and that was the worst moment of my life. seeing the woman that carried you for 9 months, gave birth, and then raised you with love and patience, being brokenhearted was just, hard. really hard. heck, I can't even see a drop of tear on her face. I would be crushed. a little of me would die inside.
I keep god in mind. again, its cliche but hey, it works for me. would you dare to do something that will only last for a few moments but face the indescribable in the after-world? no thanks. I won't lose anything if I don't experience the 'fun'.
again, I don't know why I have these thoughts. but these thoughts have kept me behave and always will, inshaaAllah.
maybe I'm blessed.
alhamdulillah for everything :)
*seyes ade unsur2 usrah. HAHA
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