I am just so heartbroken.
Without I even realized it, the feeling diminish each day. 
Until finally, it's already gone.

I don't care anymore.

had a conversation with a friend about our age. 
I'm turning 22 this year.
kalau sihat tubuh badan, xde accident or anything, iA confirm hidup sampai umur 50 tahun. 
dah almost halfway through dah O.O
alhamdulillah, dah lama jugak hidup 21 tahun lebih nih. 

I keep having these questions in my head lately:

1. what have I done so far?
2. if I die today, do I have any regrets?
3. have I done everything I've always wanted to do?
4. yang paling penting: cukup x bekalan?
5. sempat kawin ke idok ntah aku ni? HAHA

T.T

tetiba nak update.

imagine this:
you bumped into me. sekali imbas, mestilah org tgk ape aku pakai kan.
I'm wearing t-shirt vandy selekeh dpt free, jeans, kasut onitsuka, tudung pasar lambak, michael kors bag, dlm tangan ade handphone sony erricsson slide tu.
what would you think?

but personally, I don't really care what people think about my appearance. HAHA
kalau tak, takde lah aku selamba selekeh hari2, ke mana sahaja aku pergi. 
ye idok?

kadang2 terpikir, kenape laaa aku beli bnde2 mahal nih? haih.
and the answer is of course: nafsu. HAHA =.="
tapi bile pikir balik, kat sini jer la merasa nak pakai bnde2 mahal nih. 
kalau kt mesia, mmg tak merasa la aku nk pakai coach kee, hape keee
kat sini mahal jugak, tp x rasa sangat. I mean, keluarkan RM1000 or $300, sama jer nilai. tp 300 tu selamba jer lg keluarkn sbb nilai dia lg kecik. haha

kadang2 tu teringin jugak nak bergaya.
pakai lawa2 sket, make up sket. peplum lah, ape lah style baju skrang tuh.
pastu pikir, kalau nk pakai lawa2 camtu, kene la kurus dulu.
dgn badan aku skrang, nampak cam sarung cempedak jer nanti.
too much effort. so I gave up without even trying. HAHA

balik mesia kang I'll give it another shot. kat umah ade treadmill dah. xde alasan dh x bersenam. *berangan

on a side note, aku still lg rasa cool sbb pernah rasa almost nak pass out semalam. HAHA
seyes cool weehh. split second jer bdn rasa panas, mata jd kabur and gelap, dgr buzzing and x dgr sngt bunyi sekeliling. pastu split second pulok, semua tu hilang, aku siap boleh lari. amazing weh human body ni sebenarnye.

and paling cool dpt merasa org ckp "stay with me" dgn dramaticnye kat aku macam kt dlm tv. lolol