But suddenly I have the urge to write something here. Besides, I don't have anything else to do. Too much time in my hand =.="
I know I should trust in rezeki given by Allah but I can't help feeling so helpless and disappointed for not getting even one phone call from companies that I've applied to. Not even one interview appointment. It's killing me, little by little inside to see one by one of my friends have secured their jobs. Very good ones with major companies. I am aware I should not have that feeling. I am happy for them but at the same time, I wonder when will it be my turn? I think I have submit my resume to almost all the companies that hire chemical engineering. Each one that I could find on the internet. All over Malaysia.
I don't know what to do anymore. My mom thought I'm enjoying every second of doing nothing at home. I'm not. I'm dying inside. I would love to make money and give some to her. I would love to be the daughter that would give money to her parents instead of asking for it. I want to be the one helping them, not burdening them. After earning my degree, there is nothing else I would really want to do right now.
I'm trying hard not to be useless but I'm failing even in doing that.
