I don't remember the last time I got scolded.
high school?
no. 
middle school?
maybe. 

he wasn't really scolding but it was pretty terrifying. 
at the same time, I think it was a good wake up call. we can't play around anymore. 
that's what my brain said. 




my heart?
*weeps quietly.

it's almost that time in our undergraduate career: graduation. 
for those that are having their family coming here, are busy planning for trips and stuff. 
I feel sad thinking about my parents won't be here for my graduation.
the irony is, I'm the one that prevent them from coming. 

I know my dad would really love it to be here. 
but it's just not worth it. 
if I'm graduating with the highest honor, I'm more than happy to have them here. 
what Doc V said when I was a freshman really got me. 
I don't really remember his exact words but I think he said something like this, "won't you feel ashamed if your parents are here on your graduation day and when your name is announced, that's it. no latin honor. your parents will be embarrassed."

yeah. it's just not worth it to travel across the world, to watch me receiving that damn scroll. 
I've got nothing for them to be proud of. 
I have a little bit of regret, for not trying harder. 
but throughout four years of my studies, I can really see what I'm capable of.
this is my limit. 

I'm so sorry, abah. 
I've disappoint you.

dalam minggu yang sama, both elaun and gaji masuk.
muahaha.

selama ni x tau duit habis ke mana. asyik makan luar jer.

so, I've decided tiap kali gaji masuk, spend jer kat ape2 yg aku nak. 

nampak la jugak duit tu hilang ke mana kan. xde la sket2, sekali belanja $20 pastu tetiba habis =.="

nak beli bende yang mahal terus cam, x berani. start ngan bende kecik dulu like wallet :3

dunno if I'll ever use it or not but hey, on the bright side, saye dah ade wallet pompuan! *clapping sound effect
at least bley la guna bile pegi majlis kawin budak2 ni. ye dak? HAHA
dah la warna pelik kan.
aku asyik pakai kaler hitam/kelabu jer. why not biru pulak kaaannn.


p.s: so, my blog now jd tempat cite pasal shopping.
and occasionally, bile emo jugak. HAHA

random post (edited)

nak vent something out secara random. *tetiba jer kan, dh la lama x update

ari tu borak2 ngan mak, mak suruh kumpul handbag. 
at first, I was like "meh. org bukan pakai pung nanti"
but then, pikir2 balik, bile lagi nk beli beg mahal kan. 
aku rasa kalau dapat keje nanti pung, xdenye aku nak spend sampai RM1000 beli beg. makan sebulan kenyang la weeyy. lol
so, bermula lah sesi mencari beberapa jenis beg/handbag

aku mmg dah lama teringin nak beli kate spade. dah bertahun jugak. lol
sbb design dia cam, kemas. 
dalam pada mencuci mata kat website beliau, I stumbled upon 2 beg yang I fell in love with. 

1. Allen Street Raquelle

2. Waverly Street Drew

yang ni ade kaler hitam jugak. cam pelik jer kan nak pakai kaler mint.

dua2 harga sama so, argument 'yg mana satu lg murah' is not applicable. lol

*continued

pastu duk berangan2 lagi.
since dah ramai yang pakai longchamp kan, terasa peer pressure kene beli jugak. kalau xnak pakai nanti pass la kat mak. lol

3. Longchamp 'Le Pliage' Large Tote
tak decide lg kaler ape. tgh consider between deep red and sunshine.

aku bukan jenis yang senang tertarik kat design yang tulis initial brand tu byk2 like coach, penuh huruf C kat beg tuh.
but, I kinda like Michael Kors punye design.

4. Michael Kors Jet Set Logo Medium Work Tote

setakat ni tu jer kut.
kalau berjaya beli satu pun jadi laaaaa. lol