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sigh..it's time...
National Service......-_-''
At first,I'm okay with it but now..
I'm not sure..kinda have like, 'mixed' feeling about it...
I'm quite a lazy-person....
I'm very lazy to packed my clothes and stuff right now...sigh...
I'm looking forward to do the physical training activities though..
I always wanted to learn martial art before..I'll have the chance to learn hand-to-hand combat there..kinda like taek-kwan-do, I guess....
I will even have the chance to use the M-16 COLT weapon!
Whoa...this going to be like, once in a lifetime experience...
But the classes,lectures....
~~~~b0r!ng~~~~~
To my friends and families, you guys know how I'll be in classes and lectures,right?
haha...ZzZzZzZz
Hurm..guess I just have to face the music......
Wish me luck!
Oh,I'll bring along a phone but not my Sony Ericsson phone..
just a cheap, stupid, 2nd phone..I don't want to risk my real phone from being stolen..
I did lots of effort to get that phone and I'm not going to risk it for anything..
So, you guys can still contact me..but only on weekends though...
but only calls and sms(coz the phone i'll bring can only do that..haha)
no mms,video call and email...

hurm..so....
see you guys after 3 months!
or maybe sooner than that cause who knows,maybe I'll get any offer to continue my studies and I'll be able to 'graduate' National Service' sooner..^_^

Yay!

I've got my SPM result...
and not bad...definitely more than what I've expected..
I got 9 A's and 1 B ^_^
Yay! 8 A1's, 1 A2 and 1 B3..
haha...I feel like, I'm on top of the world!!
My dad gave me RM 400 for getting 8 A1's..
Not much but I don't really care..
Whatever he wants to give me, I'll accept it..
He had bought everything that I've wanted..I don't think I'll ask for anything as reward..

Hurm..I really didn't expect that result..
I mean...I played around a lot last year..
I sleep during classes..especially in Malay language, P.A.I and Physics classes..
haha....I didn't really finished all my homework...
I don't really read..
Like I said before, I only, really start study and read 2 weeks before the exam...
I even played around, took pictures and record videos on the last day before the exam...I didn't really read at all, at school...yeah,I know, crazy!
haha...but somehow, I managed to get through it...
guess I underestimated myself..
I think I'm gifted with a quite bright brain...thank god for that....

Now, got to make choices on where to go....hurm....
I'm interested in engineering.....but not really sure which one...
I mean, the choices are between chemical, mechanical, aeronautical, electrical....
hurm.....
My dad wants me to take medical..I'm not really interested in that...
Medical school is too long....have to study till phD....
I'm also considering A-Level....
I've also apply or scholarship to study abroad...
Don't really expect I'll get it cause I only got 9 A's...
There must be many straight A's student applied for it too...
tough competition..too many good students..sigh...


Another thing is National Service...sigh...
I don't want to go!!huhu.....ll-_-
Why is my name was chosen?
stupid, randomly-chosing-name-government-computer...
Why is it mandatory??damn it!
sigh...just have to face the music....
on second thought..I think it won't be really bad...
I'm using this as 'benchmark'..
If I can get through this, I think I can get through whatever challenges or obstacles in the future...yea,sort of....
sigh..5 more days of freedom..

OMG!!

2 days more..on 12th of March 2009, I will get my SPM result!
OMG!!!I'm freaking out!
OMG!OMG!OMG!
I seriously don't know what to expect...I'm quite positive but I don't want to put high hopes...
Cause I don't want to get really dissapointed..malay called it 'frust menonggeng'..hak3..
I think I've done my best...maybe n0t really..I could do more if I study harder..
I studied last minute before SPM...I only really start study and reading 2 weeks before the exam..I even played around,take pictures and record some video with my friends on the last day,1 day before the exam where I should study REALLY hard..
sigh..there's no point to bring all that back up...

I'm kinda, scared...
My dad kinda really,really hope I will get flying colours result..10 A's to be exact..
yeah,perfect score!and he wants all A1..A2 is not accepted...what??
I don't want to dissapoint him...huhu..I...don't know how the result will be...
Right now, I can really feel the 'weight' of responsibility of being the last hope of my family..
My brothers and sister turned out just well...and my dad wants more..
He really hopes I'll be more than my siblings..I really want to give him that but I'm not sure if I can do this..
sigh..
I can't really exepect what I will be in the future...
In fact, I think my future really depends on my SPM result...
Just wait and see...
Oh God,please help me in this...

~~~d'uh~~~~~

Sigh...So boring....
I'm writing this new post cause I got absolutely nothing to do....
No new messages to reply....
No one is online....
Sigh again....
I'm just doing this to fill up my time....
And I already used a minute of it..
That's a start.....
Hehe...
That's it...
Ch0w!