.trust.

I just realized something. It's not easy for me to trust people.

And I just realized no one had ever gain my full trust.

The highest would probably be 99%

Never 100%.

Not even him. Not even my family. Why? I have no idea.

Maybe I'm just sick of getting hurt.

Yes, I was once been back stabbed by someone I trust the most.

2 of those 'someone' actually.

Since then, I just, build a barrier between me and other people, I guess.

Being extra cautious.

Maybe some of you think you're close to me, you know everything about me.

Trust me, you don't.

I 'change' according to circumstances, to the people around. I 'blend' in.

I don't think anyone really know me.

I just, don't like to be hurt.

Please, I'm a human being. I'm not psychopath,that won't feel anything.

Sometimes, I wish I'm a psychopath. Unable to feel anything.

angry.

I'm so angry right now. My mom asked me to call one of my niece. I have her number but, people like to change their number, for some reason, I don't get it. Anyway, back to my story, I decided to try call it anyway. Someone pick it up, and she did sound like my niece, and I thought it's really her.

But then, the girl was really harsh and rude. I speak nicely to her, I mean, there is no reason at all to be rude. I really don't like that type of people. If I speak to someone nicely, of course I would expect the same from that person. I mean,there's no reason for you to be rude to people that treat you nicely, right?

Orang berbudi, kita berbahasa.

This is why I said, if people are nice to me, I'll be ten times nicer.

If people are rude or treat me badly, I'll be ten times worse!

So, if you think I'm bad and snobbish, that is because you do the same thing to me first.

Sophomore.

Yes, ladies and gentlemen. I'm now officially in my 2nd year of studying in Vanderbilt University, I guess; since the freshmen had arrived :P

The countdown-thingy on my laptop's screen says I've been home for 37 days now. Wow.

I just realized, I haven't gone out of Johor since 10th of May.

=.="

But, I'm looking forward for my family's vacation next week. Off to Pulau Pangkor :)

Even it'll be just me, my dad and my mom. I'm sure we'll have a blast :)

I'm not really in typing mood right now.

Just feel like, I need to update my blog :P