cekik darah.

Cuti2 ni, bnde random jer wat.
Td pegi womak(Wallmart) and makan Ihop pkul 2 pg. balik pkul 5 pg.
alang2 tunggu subuh terus ah. 

International House of Pancake.

tp ni aku x puas ati nih. makan kt Ihop td, order 2 eggs, hash browns ngan A pancake. hot chocolate skali.
smpi2 ader 3 eggs, 3 pancakes, ngan hashbrown. 
heh. ok xper, mkn jer ah.
dh mkn2, open story sumer, nk bayar.
braper aku kne? $13.
=.="
de heekkkk. cekik darah btul. mkn sitar or india lg kenyang la weeeyyyy.
dh la service cam haper. lmbt sumer.
huargh.


pegi womak, beli roti, jalan2 main ngan patung baby yg menakutkan wat pick-a-boo, jerit2 tgh jalan sumer, hbs $20 lbh. ceit.

haih. time cuti ni bahaya gak. nanti wat bnde yg sangat sangat random.

feeling feeling, go away.

I seriously don't know what exactly I'm feeling right now. 
I'm fine. I'm pretty darn sure I'm fine.
But why sometimes, he just, popped in my head?
It's kinda annoying. gggrrrr.

Go away. You aren't suppose to be in my fuckin' mind anymore.

It takes time. I know. sigh.

I just haven't met you yet.

This song cheer me up. :)

I saw it coming.

x tau la rasa aper skrang nih. nk kata neutral, x jugak. 
nak kata sdey, maybe la, sket. tipu la klau aku ckp "I'm totally fine". saper x sdey kan.
maybe full effect blum sampai lg nih.

I saw it coming. I really saw it coming. dh rasa cam something wrong somewhere, we disagreed on lots of things, got in fights for no reason, etc. I guess I kept denying it. I still tried to hold on. Well, apparently, I'm the only one that's been doing that. 

Long distance relationship is not as easy as it seems. 
I've said that, hundreds of times before we started off. I thought you really understand that. Well, maybe. 
Then you just can't handle it anymore. 
Just, video call, call, sms, wall posts, messsages, weren't enough.

Suddenly I remember the article about 'human communications'(or something like that, don't remember) and the debates on how technologies have affects it, maybe during PAVE. hurm. random.


We're cool. We've been friends since we were in elementary school and we'll always be. 


Oh well, HE had planned everything, perfectly for me. I just need to keep moving forward.




this song suits the situation.

Its not easy.

heh. never thought it would bother me this much.

maybe I don't really show it. I'm not quite sure how.
I miss you. quite much.
sigh.

but it don't really matter now.
you're gone.

kureng sejam.

dalam 50 minit lg nk jawab kertas final pertama, Math 175, and aper aku buat? menulis kt sini jap. heh
dh x larat dah. even though rasa cam x prepare sepenuhnyer, tp dh concentrated sngt dh information yg ader dalam kepala skrang. Chapter 17, please be nice. aku paham sket2 jer, ingat formula. huargh.
btw, hasrat nak beli lens 50mm sblum pegi Florida tidak kesampaian. kuchiwa2. xder rezeki. eh2, baru prasan, dlm seminggu jer lg nk pegi trip tuh.

btw, wat pertama kali nyer, aku berjaya deactivate facebook. haha
dah 12 jam dah deactivate. fuh fuh. berjaya gler. 
nak activate pas exam bio la kot. ari Jumaat, 17hb. seminggu woooo. mlm td pun dh tempting gler nk activate balik. haha

okeh, dah, belek2 wat kali terakhir. wish me luck. really need it.

lawak lawak.

tgh x bley tdo and malas nk study nih, tiba2 tringt pulok zaman skolah dlu. haih. lawak2.
maybe ni sbb aku tiba2 tringt ader seseorg cter pasal adik dia yg x nak stay kt skolah asrama penuh, and dia sngt2 la x sokong aper yg adik dia nak tuh. "kalau dia keluar asrama, bley ke dia dpt result bagus?" kata beliau la.

heh. aku sengih jer sensorang sbb aku dh prnh rasa aper yg adik beliau rasa. sangat2 paham. kalau dah 2 sekolah asrama aku pegi pastu keluar, nak kata aper lg kan. SMK Seri Rompin and MRSM Jasin. haih. sumpah lawak bler tringt balik.

aku x bley terima hidup kt asrama sbb aku rasa sngt2 trkongkong. dan penat. dan of course, homesick. 
"ala homesick, lama2 ok la tuh. aku 2 tahun baru hilang homesick"
yeah, maybe. tp sy x seperti anda, ok jer mnjalani kehidupan seharian di asrama tuh. aku? aku rasa sepanjang duk asrama, ari2 aku tdo. dr mula kelas pkul 8 sampai hbs kelas. aku sendiri x phm knaper aku sebegitu penat. kalau x tdo pun, x masuk sepatah haram aper ckgu ajar.

kalau sekolah bagus, aku hampeh, x guna jugok.
dipendekkan cerita, masa Form 1, kt SMK Seri Rompin tu, aku tahan sebulan jer and Form 4 kat MRSM Jasin, aku tahan 2 bulan. nk mulakan hdp balik pastu mmg agak susah. yer ah, dh dgn banggayer berpindah ke skolah 'lebih bagus' pastu dtg balik. per cer? ayat yg plng best yg aku dgr masa aku kuar MRSM tuh, ader org ckp, "dpt MRSM Jasin, keluar? nak jadi aper budak nih?self-destruct nmanyer tuh"
heh. xper, chill jer. pd aku x penting skolah tuh. yg penting org nyer sendiri.


tiba2 rasa malas nk bercerita lg pulok. sambung esok lusa ah.



 

huh.

first time I heard this song, I really like it, without really pay any attention to the lyrics. but now that I had, it's really, weird. talking about 2 people that loves hurting each other; kinda like, masochist. heh. 
camni pun bley jadi lagu. =.="
but I really like Eminem's part 'coz he rap with full emotion, like, I can really feel what he feels.
btw, I'm suppose to be studying for finals. omg. why am I soooooo lazy right now? ggggrrrr.

finals.

I want to write about my thanksgiving break in Gatlinburg but I don't really have the time now.
Finals are getting nearer and I'm getting lazier. sigh.
On the bright side, Florida on winter break baby! woot woot!