1st subject yg dh keluar result: Fluid and heat transfer.

I really don't know patut rasa ape skrang ni

kalau dh memang kurang bijak tu, memang kurang bijak la jugak kan.

final week

seminggu jer lg, nk habiskan sem Fall '11 nih.

5 semesters down, 3 more to go.
meme ni summarized sem kali nih. lol

On the bright side, less than a week to SF-LA-LV trip! weehoo!

There are times where I don't give a fuck about money. 
When that time comes, I'll spend them like, well, I don't give a fuck. 
even though I'm not supposed to do that.
especially when I'm hungry(buy lots of food) 
or stress(buy unnecessary stuff like an aquarium. yes, I was so stressed out at the time I bought it).






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*kais kais

rezeki

rezeki orang lain2.
sometimes I won't get what I want but still, I have everything that I need.
food, shelter, clothes, etc.
sometimes kne ingatkan diri sendiri pasal ni.


I admit, kadang2 jealous tgk kawan yg banyak duit.
pakai beli jer ape yang diorang nak. 
boleh pegi ke mana sahaja yang diorang nak.
while for me, I can't get both.
keje part time dining tu xla seberapa. 
cukup nak tampung cost nk g trip masa cuti panjang jer.
I don't want to trouble my parents. sekali dua jer. 
tu pun kalau boleh, nak elak. xnak ketuk parents dah.


so, banyak2 bersabar yer aini. xde rezeki nak pegi snowboarding, xde rezeki nak shopping black friday.
InsyaAllah, snowboarding tu nanti merasa jugak sebelum grad then balik mesia for good. shopping tu bile2 pun boleh buat. 
kite chill, makan tdo jer. wokeh? *gila cakap ngan diri sendiri. =.="

koreanized

fine, I'll admit it. I think I've been 'koreanized'. lol
but so far, cuma layan lagu jer. drama or filem, blum lagi. 
kalau tgk pun sebab ader actor that I love.
bile ingat balik, aku start suker korea sbb the guys in it. lol.
so, secara random saye nak cakap pasal lelaki korea yang pernah bertakhta di hati ini. echewah. 

so, first stop: Kim Jae Wook

Kenal mamat ni from Marry Me Mary. My first korean drama, ever. tu pun setelah Al bising2 suruh aku tgk sbb cite ni best. and poof, aku jatuh cinta kat mamat nih. kalau x, xde nyer aku nk tgk habis cite tu. lols. lagipun xde bnde lain nk buat masa winter break. 


Next: Han Kyung from Super Junior

Ni x ingat la kenape aku tiba2 suker. Masa budak2 ni bising2 pasal Super Junior (masa freshmen kalau x silap) and kononyer kne pick sorang dr group tu. I chose this guy. lol. tapi skrang kalau suruh aku choose, I'll choose Siwon or Donghae.

Next: Yunho from TVXQ. 

mamat ni bile dia pakai suit and rambut dia camtu, fuh. fuh fuh.
smart oh. lagi dalam 'Keep Your Head Down' nyer MV. *pengsan.

Neexxxtttt: yang paling latest and yang paling aku angau2 kan pada masa kini

Choi Seung Hyun aka TOP from BigBang

disebabkan mamat ni sangat hot, saye post banyak sket gamba beliau. lol

*pengsan

mamat ni sebenarnyer tahap kehenseman beliau biasa2 jer. ok tipu. pada aku tahap luar biasa. LOL. pandangan beliau akan berjaya menambat hati mana2 gadis yang dia pandang. kalau x semua pun, maybe aku jer kut. lol. echewah.
serius oh. aku rasa kalau dia lalu depan aku, pandang aku, secara automatic aku pengsan. cam gamba kat bawah nih.

shoot. menusuk kalbu duh. huargh.

p.s: x semua image diorang aku suker. cam Kim Jae Wook tu, aku suker imej dia dlm Marry Me Mary jer. Yunho dlm MV Keep your Head Down and Han Kyung dalam MV Super Girl. But T.O.P is an exception. dia pakai gaya ape pun, dia tetap berjaya buat aku pengsan. LOL

mood putus cinta x pasal2.

first, kter layan lagu ni dulu. lols

sedih la lagu nih. sobs.
x tau kenape aku sedih. nk kata aku sedih sbb tringat relationship aku dulu tu, mmg x la. LOL
ni cam, random2 feeling putus cinta. 
diorang cam comel jer, couple.
pastu maybe dah bosan or something. diorg love each other jer lagi, tp cam, sparks tu dh xder kut
echewah, aper yg aku ckp nih.
tapi seyes feeling oh. 
part yg dia cam, flashback. aawww, comelnyew :3


p.s: sok nk terjun nih, shit bricks aku. lol

most fucked up music video I've ever seen.

I'm a huge fan of Jay-Z.


but this music video is really disturbing.
everything about this video is wrong. 
EVERYTHING.
filled with illuminati-stuff -> if you would like to say that

O.O
absolutely mindfuck after I watched this. 

angin bertiup sepoi2 bahasa

pokok xkan bergoyang kalau xder angin yg tiup.
instead of marah pokok tu sbb dia goyang, cuba cari mna dtg angin tu. 


semula jadi kee
ader ribut keeee
ader org letak kipas keee
ader org duk goncang pokok tu kt bawah keee
ader lembu duk sondol2 pokok tu keeee


ok, dh merapek.


but, you get what I mean, kan?

emo moment

dh la mmg that time of the month ntuk aku meng-emo.
no, bkn pms. aku pun x tau kt stage mna ni.
tp yg penting aku annoyed.
ngan sumer bnde pulok tuh.


Blueberry II ngan Pinkberry mkn x habis aku nk marah.
hoi, mahal tau x flakes tu. makan. kalau x nanti kotor la air tuh. 


ngan malas cam hapernyer.
study malas. buat homework malas.
annoyed ngan diri sendiri. ergh. 

keep track *updated

tiba2 terasa nak keep track setakat ni, aku dh sampai mana.
hurm. refresh balik memori.


Freshman:

1. Atlanta (winter)
2. Chicago (summer)


Sophomore:

3. Gatlinburg (thanksgiving)
4. Florida Road Trip:
    i. Alabama
    ii.Panama City
   iii.Tampa
   iv.Miami
    v.Key West
    vi.Disneyworld, Universal Studios, Busch Garden, Seaworld
5. Washington-New York-Canada Road Trip:
    i. Washington
    ii. New York
   iii. Niagara Falls
    iv.Massachusetts
     v.Toronto
    vi.Canada Wonderland, Cedar Point


Junior:
1. Winter Road Trip
   i.  San Francisco
   ii. Los Angeles
   iii.Las Vegas

Senior:
1. Six Flags Atlanta 

rasa kurang kasih sayang.
sobs.
emo x tentu pasal.

monyet arctic

yes. saat aku serahkan homework fluid kat TA pkul 4.45 petang hari rabu, bermula lah episode fall break aku. echewah.
serius, x pernah rasa se-happy tu submit homework.

malam tu ader concert Arctic Monkeys! weehoo!
lagu ni yg membuatkan aku terpikat. echewah. diorg pun selenge lg masa ni. lol.

aku minat diorang dr kt mesia lg. akhirnyer ader chance nk pegi concert diorg. at first berat hati sebab GA. cam x elok jer kan pompuan pegi concert, GA pulok tu. bukan macam, memang x elok pun. lols.
long story short, after I watched them live at Lollapalooza, secara x sedar check out ticket. yes, seriously secara x sengaja. 
awesome sangat duh diorang live.
lama gak aaa kterorg beratur. konon datang awal sebab nk dpt front row.
we did ended up at front row. well, technically second row but still, kira depan skali aaaa. dh aaa kt tgh2. kira singer nanti betul2 depan mata aa.
ader opening by saper ntah. x kenalkan diri, tiba2 jer main lagu.
serious sumer org x tau. diam jer. lols.
masa tu I thought "GA is not so bad after all" sebab xder pun org himpit2 ke, haper ke. aku cam ader space sendiri, siap bley pusing2, stretching2 lg. 
bler Arctic Monkeys keluar, mulala orang naik gila.
mula2 ader pakcik besar belakang aku yg macam 'protect' aku sebab dia besar, org x berani nk langgar dia kut. tapi last2 dia blah sbb x tahan.
teruk jugak aaaa org main tolak2. 
sesekali aku kne tolak, terhimpit orang depan yg kt pagar. ader org crowd surfing la. omg, it was a disaster. 
tapi kan, dalam diorg main tolak2 tu, xder pulok diorg raba org ke, haper ke. 
I mean, kalau tolak tu, diorg angkat tangan or genggam kan tangan.
sakit gak badan. haih. 
that was my first and last GA. x sanggup dah. 
and x tau pulok ader seating rupernyer. masa nk beli tiket xder pung =.="
aku x berape enjoy sangat concert tu sbb x berapa selesa. 
but still, it was awesome. 

after that concert, ingat nak balik terus sebab lapaq.
Adilah ajak stay and stalk diorg.
at first aku rasa cam x make sense sebab cam impossible jer nk jumper diorg.
ramai jugak org tunggu kt backdoor tu. tp after a while, org blah sbb pikir cam aku pikir tu kut.
after about 2 hours, Adilah nampak org rambut elvis. "ALEX!"
terus org melayu yg dtg serbu. haha
omputih lain x prasan pun =.="

speechless duh jumper Alex Turner.
menggigil kepala lutut sebab excited. lolol.
budak2 ni lg la. mintak sign baju la. Adilah mintak sign kt beg. haha
mula2 dia buat gaya lain. aku buat 'peace'
pastu dia ikut, buat peace jugak. aaaa, comel nyer Alex :3

amek gambar dengan drummer dia jugak.
drummer dia hustler gilaaaa. lagu arctic monkeys byk yg laju2 kan.

angau kt Alex pulok skrang :3

bnde ni patutnyer nk post sebulan yg lepas. baru prasan. lol.

when I feel all alone, in 'forever alone' mood, my awesome friends will remind me that I am not.


Events that made me so F-in' happy on my birthday:


my buddy, Saidah was the first to wish me through sms. at exactly 12am (malaysia's time)


my GF (LOL), Siew Ping made a video for me. She sang the 'happy birthday' song. I'm really touched! :')
then she sent a package with lots of stuff and love! 

I bought a goldfish for myself. named it Blueberry II. *first one died. sobs T.T

meet Blueberry II

Al gave me a link to a cool 'happy birthday' video. and a sweater :D


Irfan gave me a birthday card. 


Kyra-chan and Dillot-chan bought a cheesecake from The Cheesecake Factory. 


Mimie masak paprik. it was sooo delicious! serious x tipu. lulus, bley bukak kedai makan. hihi


just when I thought I've had enough 'love' from everyone on my birthday, (just about to go to sleep) my friends came to my room with a cake!
Thank you so much wani, abel, aten, bella, yang, reny, ann, diana, dillot, aliya, kyra, adilah. 
it didn't end there. they got me a birthday present too!
tadaaahhhh

meet Kalor.

I've always wanted this. I almost buy it until I saw the shipping rate. =.="
my thought was "nah, I'll buy it when I get back next year"
turns out I don't have too. :)


ok, setakat tu sahaja post sempena bosan menunggu kelas socio sat lg.

ntah kenape jiwa ni kacau.
haih. I'm not being myself la ckp pasal hati, cinta, blah blah nih *not that I'm in love or something like that.


but, this one dude really stirred up my life. no, not U-you-know-who. he was nothing but the worst mistake in my life. lol. lawak bler ingt balik.
ok, sambung drama sedih.


aku beli ikan emas tu sbnrnyer nk menggembirakan hati yg duka lara. 
mmg berkesan. serius happy bler dapat ikan tuh.
tapi sayang hanya sementara. *chewah
sebab tu bler dia mati, aku nangis cam bak kata mak, org mati anak.
sebab aku dh lama jugak pendam bnde nih. x macho la nangis. 
nangis tu ntuk org yg lemah jer.
tapi ntah kenape, bler ikan tu mati, laju jer mencurah air mata nih.
mmg aku sedih ikan tu mati but there was something else.
cam, air mata yg patutnyer kuar sblum ni, yg aku duk tahan2, keluar jugak akhirnyer.


yes, I know. I'm not being myself cakap camni.


no matter how hard I'm trying to act tough like everything's alright, deep inside I'm too vulnerable. kenape emo sangat nih.
jangan cari pasal please aini. sem baru start. 
dh la bakal xder life sem ni. 
concentrate please.

since sebelum ni ader cakap nk beli something ntuk diri sendiri, aku beli la sekor goldfish. siap balang bulat tuh, ader pokok ngan batu sket lg.
dah lama dh nak bela ikan ni. dr freshman lg.
tgh stress2 ni aku spend tanpa berfikir 2 kali. so, puff! aku pun beli.


dgn bahagia nyer aku bawak Blueberry balik. Ipan yg bg nama. since nama tu cam comel jer. ltk jer aaa nama Blueberry.
serious happy. dh la comel sangat blueberry nih. huargh.
dh siapkan air sumer, aku letak la dia dlm tu.
dh nampak cam pelik dah sebenarnyer. tp since nk kne pegi soran bushi tu, tinggal la kejap. 
aku letak la sket flake makanan dia tuh.


balik tu aku pun dgn eager nyer nk tgk keadaan Blueberry. dia x berenang2 pun. duk diam jer kt dasar tuh. insang dia pun x gerak dah.
T.T
sooooooooooooooobbbbbbbbbbbbbbssssssssssss.


sumpah kecewa. kecewa sangat nih. cam org mati anak pulok aku nangis. x tau knaper. 
bnde tu comel sangaaaattttt. sian nyeeerrrrrrr T.T
mmg la org kata kalau ajal dh sampai tu, x dapek nk elak dah. tapi bawah jagaan aku kuuuutttt T.T


dh la buat cendol ptg td x jadik. mmg malang aaaa nasib hari nih.


sok nk pegi amek ikan baru since ader warranty. haaaa, beli ikan pun ader warranty. dia kata kalau mati dlm masa 14 hari, dtg balik bawak ikan mati tu, tukar yg baru.
sok nk pegi. so, hopefully, Blueberry II nanti panjang laaa umur beliau. 


kalau mati jugak, bunuh diri aaaa.

appreciate diri sendiri

I love you, but I love myself more. lol
antara pengajaran yg aku baru dapat. sayangi diri sendiri.
haha


so, terasa nak beli something ntuk diri sendiri. dh lama x beli. 
eerrr, bantal baru tu x termasuk. xbox pun tak. keh3.


ari tu almost nk check out Ipod. x make sense.
=.="
duit xder, berangan lebih pulok. lol


dah la fall sem dh nk start.
demmit. x bersedia. tidaaaakkk.


hidup masa cuti sangat membahagiakan. x payah nk risau aper2.
even though kadang2 bosan
but hey, I'd rather duk termenung x buat aper2 than sibuk siapkan homework. hihi

downside of her life.

now you can drop it. all of the acts.
I must say, you are one hell of an actor.
you mush had lots of fun, eh?
playing around with a 20 years old girl's feeling.
She was so naive. too naive.


you've just made a big hole in her life.
leaving a pretty nasty scar.


her life will never be the same.
she can turn your life upside down, cause a mess in your life.
but for some reason, revenge is not her 'thing'
she is too kind. 
she doesn't deserve this.


please, be strong.

damn. 

backstabber.

it hurts more than I thought.

ouch.

do not take advantage of my loyalty.
you might lose it. 

moe

I don't know why but suddenly I feel like, I want to read kaichou wa maid sama. It has been a while. I even forget what was the last chapter that I had read. As usual, the manga is filled with moe scene (lovey-dovey-kawaii-scene) of usui and misaki

I forgot how kawaii they aaarrrreeeeee <3
comel sangat niiiiii.

nak kawin please. nk lovey-dovey ngan laki. 

saper berminat, cepat masuk meminang.
LOL

*kecewa la jd pompuan yg x market. haih. 

monyet artik

sempena jeles tahap cipan ngan mokcik adilah yg dpt jumper Alex Turner, aku layan lagu arctic monkeys.

ni antara lagu fav aku aaaaa.
album diorg skrang bley layan aaa. x sampai aku ulang2 cam album yg nih. lol. 


tapi rambut dia skrang hampeh. dh kureng ke-hensem-an beliau.

I don't know why but I like watching you from a distance.
then I'll just smile. 
kinda miss you.


:)

hurm.

for some reason yg tidak diketahui, sy suker Rihanna dlm video nih. 

serious. 
x tau knaper. 
=.="

masak.

tiba2 rasa nk menaip kt sini kejap. ekeke
aku sebenarnyer agak suker aaaaa main masak2 nih :P
aku bley masak bnde yg aku tringin nk makan, mengikut citarasa aku. 
tp aku sbnrnyer kureng gemar masak ntuk org skali.
kenape?
haaaaaa. 
sbb citarasa org lain2. takut aaa kan citarasa aku x sama ngan diorg. 
pd aku maybe dh ok, pd org lain tak. 
aku sendri pun kalau mkn org lain masak, x sedap, cam, eeeerrrrr...
tp setkt ni org lain masak ntuk aku sedap jer. hihi


setakat ni aku masak, sumer rasa kureng. kecewa2.
maaf la kawan2 yg terpaksa makan aku masak tuh. 
saya budak baru belajar. sooobbbbsss.

I have no one to turn to. 

when you ask a girl, "are you okay?" and she said "I'm fine," that literally means "no I'm not, what the fuck were you thinking?"

and before that, you asked her "are you mad?" when it is obvious that I am mad. that just made it worse.
ppffffttt.




screw you. I'm not giving in anymore.
I've my own limit. 

sad sad situation.

title dr lagu sorry seems to be the hardest word. 


"It is not that the "free and fair" elections many Bersih members are fighting for aren't a legitimate cause. It is the fact that the leadership of Bersih are disingenuously harnessing the good intentions, energy, and resources of their naive followers to carry out foreign-funded sedition and regime change that will result in a dismal future for all Malaysians. Surely the ancestors of today's Bersih protesters didn't struggle and fight for Malaysian independence just so a foreign-backed stooge like Anwar Ibrahim could worm his way back into power, and with him bring back the same slouching degenerate bankers, merchants, and monied elite who had despoiled Malaysia and her riches for centuries."

quoted from here

kerbaupit

ntah knaper, sedang aku melayan music video 'hey baby' by Pitbull feat. T-Pain, secara random nyer aku terpikir "not bad Pitbull nih"
sheet.
freak out duuuuhhhhh
hahahahahaha


x make sense. maybe sbb dia suker pakai suit putih, cam nmpk cool. pastu cara dia nyanyi dlm video tu yg senget2 mulut, pun cam cool. pastu suara dia yg cam, macho gitu. pun agak cool jugak.


tp dia x hensem puunngg. dh la botaaakkk.
x make seeeennnssseeeeee.

*byk pulok post kan nk exam nih. =.="

I love clubbing-low bass type of song.
Is something wrong with me? =.="

and usually lagu2 camni mesti music video ader pompuan yg x lawa pun, tp bdn diorg, eerr, pada aku x la lawa sangat. tp ntuk omputih sexy la kut. yg jenis yg 'mantap' gituu. haha
aper yg aku merapek niiiiii. haih.

update wishlist.

ok, yg nombor 2 dah tercapai. muahaha
xder aaa beli Coach. gler ke haper tgh kegawatan ekonomi nih.
Coach tu contoh jer aaa. 
dpt la nih:


beg baru sy.


x pernah ader beg. I mean, cam beg ntuk jln2 la. handbag, huh, apatah lg. tu nnti kut, x teringin pun lg. lol.
besar gak aaa beg nih. muat baby Canon aku tuh. heh, baby dh besar sket (umur dh meningkat), dh malas sket nk jaga. ala, beg kamera tu pun lbh kureng jeeww. nnti aa beli beg yg sepatutnyer ntuk kamera. dh ader accessories, aper kejadah sumer tuh. lg pun duit xder.
sooobbsss. kecewa aa camni. org sumer tgh masyuk baru dpt gaji, aku duk diam2 jer. haih. 
haih haih.
sabar sabar.
tp bagus jugak duit org pegangkan nih. xder la aku nk blanjer sesuker hati. secara x langsung, berjimat laaa sket. 

politik.

eh, penatla aku nk melayan politik nih. 
the argument used on one side can be use against the other side too.
so, x habis2 aaa nk gaduh.
gaduh la gaduh. ppffttt.


aku x kisah org nk politik2 nih.
just, aku x suker jenis yg, camner nk ckp eh, contoh dia camni aaa.
aku ader secara x sengaja berdebat ngan org mna ntah kt fb tu. lol
x tau aa knaper tempting nk nyampuk. 
ader yg tanyer, ader ke sebut hadis pasal haram sama sekali lawan pemimpin negara?
aku tanyer balik, ader ke yg sebut halal sama sekali lawan pemimpin negara? 
one of them replied this:

"tang ade mende yg berlawanan ngan kjaan, kua laa hadis itu ini, kua laa video seks faked , kua laa surat kabar anjing kjaan, kua laa mcm2 mende...tp bile dianjur konsert artis mcm nak bogel smpai terkeluar itu ini ade yg bising..?gua saspek najib ngan anjing2 dia senyum lebar laa weh layan pompuan seksi kat screen tv...mane hadis nak lawan semua tuh..?ulamak2 depan gi simpan semua kitab2 dlm peti ais takut najib buang keje..."

aku x suker jenis camni. ppffttt.
jenis yg guna 'anjing' la, aper la. ayat yg provoke. 
aper yg ko ckp nih? x make sense. 
x berasas. like hello, ko nampak ke dia buat aper?
=.="
'layan pompuan seksi kt screen tv' - wtf was that? tgk movie pun ader pompuan seksi. =_____________="
tp aku x jwb aa camtu. kang makin angin mamat tu. lolol


maybe aku ni jenis yg judge org cam, "innocent until proven guilty".
damn, x pasal2 aku jd sampah ari nih, duk baca pasal bnde2 nih.
eh, tdo la. xnk tdo, study. ppfftt.

main masak2.

semenjak duk umah ader dapur ni kan, rajin sungguh dak2 ni masak.
dh masak, amek gmbo, pastu post kat fb. 

aku sbnrnyer kurang gemar org masak, amek gmbo pastu post kt fb nih. 

aku paham, mesti aa bangga kan, dh masak sedap2, lawa2. 

yes, I am jealous. 

saper x jeles weeeyy, kalau aku mkn nasik lauk telur ngan sambal jer, pastu tgk org post gamba masak spesel2. fuh fuh. sedapnyeerr.

tu nsb baik aku dah mkn gak. kalau aku tgh kebuluran? x rasa x sedap hati ke?
I mean, kter mkn sedap2, tunjuk pulok kt org, pastu org tu terliur je tgk.

telan air liur jer dia. pastu tiba2 kriiuukk, berbunyi perut dia.
sian dia.

rasa x best la kan. tu kalau aku laaa. 

sbb tu aku x buat. aku tau perasaan org yg tgk gambo tu camner. x best.

x nak aa org rasa perasaan camtu jugok.

bkn nk marah org wat camtu or aper2 pun. tu hak diorg la kan.
tp kalau dh post tuh, hulur la sket. meleleh air liur aku tgk.

huhuhuhuu T.T

waktu ntuk meng-emo

It's that time of the month, where aku emo x tentu pasal.
lol.
x tau aaaaa. btul aa wani, aku complicated duh. 
sian laki aku nnti. haih.


pastu rasa kurang kasih sayang. cam, kewujudan aku kt dunia ni x bermakna aper2 pun. kalau aku mati, xder saper kisah, camtu aaa.

haih. *duduk kt corner bilik, dlm gelap, ader 1 lampu jer atas aku. sambil cangkung, kuis2 tanah kt situ.


p.s: reben aku dh tukar baru, wohoo! camtu jer mamat kt sunglass hut tukarkn. kalau aku tau, aku toreh2 ngan kunci, baru rasa berbaloi tukar. haha

wishlist.

x tau knaper tp tiba2 terasa nk beli byk barang and sumer mahal2 belaka. =.="
kalau kaya xper jugok. dh aaa x keje masa summer. xder duit aaaaaaaa.
pastu terasa nk listkan jer dulu barang yg nk dibeli. target dlm masa setahun ni kut, nk beli sumer. ni nafsu ni. lol.
dh lama x wat camni. dulu masa sekolah menengah, slalu wat wishlist. pastu sanggup aaa x mkn masa rehat, kumpul duit. pastu skrang ntah ke mana bnde yg aku beli tuh. =_____="

1. Rayban Aviator. 

ni yg first and dh dpt dh. hihi
tp dh calaaarrrr. shoootttt. dh aaa jatuh ngam2 pulok angle kne bucu batu. kuang asam. walaupun setitik jer, tp sayang wooooo T.T
pastu naik roller coaster kt cedar point x dpt nk enjoy sepenuhnyer sbb takut baby ni jatuh. bagai minyak ditatang penuh, jatuh jugak akhirnyer. kecewa kecewa

2. Sling bag. 

x specific aa nk brand aper. tp setkt ni I got my eyes in this one. Coach, audrey leather. tp mahal sngt cam x make sense. lol
nk spesis yg camni aa. crossbody, pastu x la besar sangat. 

3. Apple Ipod nano

yes, I like my bass down low. lol.
nk ni sbb dh lama nk mp3 player yg kecik. Ipod touch besar aaaa. nk dgr music jer. nnti konon berangan nk beli Iphone. kih3. berangan aaaa. x suker sngt phone fully touch screen nih. 

4. Lomography Diana F+

yes, sy dh ader dslr. tp nk jugak nih sbb nanti nk beli instant back so bley jd poloroid and fish eye lens. nk beli fish eye lens ntuk dslr x dapek aaa. aku survey2 dlm $300. tu pun bkn jenama canon. yg cam, Tamron tuh. fuh fuh. photography expensive sngt la weeyy. ngan flash and tripod x beli lg. pfftt. =.=" tu masuk wishlist ni jugok. 

5. Plush Fugi

ni random. haha. sian keroro dh lama sangat dia keseorangan. shamu kecik sangat. lol. comel aaaa. tp ni lg satu, mahal jugok. dlm USD pun dlm $38. ni nk beli ntuk diri sendri on birthday kut. haha, bapak pathetic beli hadiah birthday sendri. reward ntuk diri sendiri ok :P

6. watch baru

berangan nk swatch. mula2 ingt nk beli yg plastic jer swatch tp plastic sngt =.="

plastic yg keras tu. wadehek. baik beli besi jer trus. yg leather dh ader dh, fossil. tu pun cam nk hancus dh. lol. plastic beli cap lain aaa. nk ader sumer jns watch. dem, mana tumpahnyer kuah kalau x ke nasik. abah pun suker kumpul watches. =.="

hurm, tu dulu kut. nnti update lg. lolol.
hopefully, by thn dpn, dh dpt aaa sumer. mana nk cekau duit nih, demmit.

nk jln lg winter kang. ppfftt. summer thn dpn pun nk jln gak. 

haaaa, nnti wat wishlist versi jln2 pulok. :P

nak ni please.


http://usa.shop.lomography.com/cameras/plastic-fantastic-standard

comeeeellll.

cam best jer bnde lomography nih. tp kureng nyer dia pki film. =.="
kt sni kt mna eh nk cuci gambar? mahal x?


seyes nak beli. kalau x sumer pun, nk yg fish eye. fish eye lens mahal gler kut. =.="

hampeh.

kalau dah kurang bijak tu, memang kurang bijak jugak la.
buat la aper pun, sama jer.
T.T

bunuh diri aa camni.

end of maymester

June 4th, 2011. Saturday.
Summer session 1 starts on Tuesday.

Chem 220A. Organic Chemistry. ppfftt.
God, please be with me throughout the journey.
sigh

dah puas jalan2, pokai la pulok. omg, bajet lari ke laut. 

tp rasa puas hati sbb duit byk hbs beli souvenir ntuk family ntuk diri sendiri. 

hihi

aku sbnrnyer malas dah nk update aper2 kt sini tp x tau knaper tiba2 rasa nak menaip but x tau nk menaip pasal aper. lol
pastu tiba2 mood malas tu datang balik.
ok dah. chow dulu. lol.

pft.

It's 'amazing' how people come to you when they need you.
Then ditch you when they don't need you.

heh. another 'great' thing about this 'great' world. 

awesome. 

I really wish I'm a psychopath. right now.
So I won't be easily offended.

I hate this feeling. 

thermo-phobia no more.

alhamdulillah. my thermo's final grade is not as bad as I thought it would be.
it's either I really 'kicked ass' in final exam or Prof. Laibanis 'curve' the grade like, insanely. or both.

but,

TAK MAKE SENSE.

thermo's grade is better than math.
sumpah x make sense. x make sense sangaaatttt. 

T.T

spring 2011

pejam celik, pejam celik, dah habis spring semester.

dengan itu berakhir sudah tahun kedua saya menuntut ilmu di sini.
echewah. tiba2 terskema =.="

2 tahun lg nak grad. fuh fuh.

kadang2 rasa nyesal pulok x balik tahun nih. huargh. rindu mak abah :(
last jumpa tepat setahun yg lepas. ingt lg, masa kt airport tu, mula2 x nampak mak, nampak abah jer. haha
dah nampak mak, air mata ni x tahan dah. terus mengalir dengan derasnyer. lol

*sy gembeng. heh.

pastu melepek selama seminggu sbb x tahan kepanasan malaysia. lol
bukan nak menggedik ke haper, memang terkejut sket ngan perubahan cuaca wooo. padahal masa pindah tu, kt sini pun dah mula panas dah, dah mula summer. tp disebabkan humidity. 

pastu balik sini balik pun melepek kepanasan jugak. panas sangat pulok. =.="

tp xper, nanti nak g trip new york-canada. yeay. 

tu price ntuk x balik mesia. dpt jln2. lol

and x dpt nk beli byk barang jugak. barang tu xper, lain kali bley beli. 

nak jalan2 kt sni, dlm masa 4 tahun ni jer boleh. leceh kan nk masuk US. nk kne apply visa la, haper la. haih. 

so, sementara ader visa and ader kt sini nih, kter utilizekn dia. ekeke.

btw, td roomate dah siap2 kemas barang dia dah. soobbss. sayu gak hati aku tgk. dah ah dia balik mesia, pastu dh x jd roomate daaaahh. soooobbsss T.T

yg aku ni bler ntah nk start packing. x tau nk mula dr mana. haih.

nanti mesti ader jer barang yang datang dr mana ntah, yg aku x ingat asal usulnya. =.="

heh

aku x harap tinggi pun ntuk thermo.
sekadar lulus pun dah cukup.
soobbssss. T.T

jatuh

Kalau dah byk kali sngt jatuh ni pun bahaya jugok eh.
lali pulok. 
=.="
haih. don't get too comfortable la aini ooiiii.
nak final niiiii T.T


btw, mrkh math test 3 ari tuh x lg teruk dr thermo. lol.
alhamdulillah. Prof Xia yg comel lg baik hati tmbh markah. hihi


lusa final. aku pulok sempat tgk naruto. 10 episode ader aku rasa td.
tgh conflict duuhhh. mana bley tinggal gitu jer.
x senang nk study =.="
skrang bley study ngan aman, insyaAllah. 
ok, tu jer nk taip. effect caramel macchiato, x bley tdo @.@

=.="

Fuck you math. I think I'm missing the gene to understand math or something, because I'm sooooo bad at math T.T
Math 198 is supposed to be easy. 
and here I am, just got raped by the 3rd test. seriously. that bad.
I even think that my grade for Thermo test 2 is waay better that the grade for Math test 3. 
x make sense, Thermo's grade, better than math. 


TAK MAKE SEEEENNNSSSEEEEE.

org yg rapat.

skrang rajin sbb dh xder bnde sngt nk wat. tgh keje kt varsity nih. lol
x pernah dibuat pekerja varsity bwk laptop. ari ni jer, ok. dh xder org dtg pun. pastu xder bnde nk di-stock. =.="


berbalik pada tajuk. mesti ader yg pernah ditanya "saper yg paling rapat ngan ko?" or "saper kawan baik ko?".
honestly, aku x suker soalan nih. 
kalau aku salah jawab kang, ader yg terasa pulok. 
sebab aku pernah terasa. *echewah.
aku ingt aku agak rapat ah ngan org nih. pastu ader org tanyer soklan camtu kt dia, dia x sebut pun nama aku. so, agak terasa di situ. syok sendiri rupernyer. sooobbss.


so, aku x nk jawab soklan tu kalau ader org tanyer.
"dh tu, camner ko nk tau org yg rapat ngan ko?"
haaaaaa. kalau org tu rapat ngan aku, dia tau ah.
or, dia rasa dia rapat ngan aku, mmg dia rapat ngan aku la tuh.


so, kepada kawan baik aku, you know who you are ;)

comeback.

"yatta!"

my marks for thermo may not be as good as most of the Malaysians. 
but it's waaaayyy better than first one. 
and, beyond my expectation. 
let's just say, tinggi jugak ah bg standard aku. 
Alhamdulillah. :)


comeback baby. 
baru la semangat nk blajo thermo. hihi
kne kekalkan. yosh. 
dh nampak balik sinar harapan yg sblum ni x nmpk langsung. gelap gelita jer. 


tapi kan, thermo dh ok, yg lain pulok hancus. demmit. T.T

F

ok, now I feel like s. 

what is f-in' wrong with me? especially this morning.

when I read the questions, it was like, I 'skipped' a few words.

like, I don't see them. it has been a while since the last time this happened.

maybe my mind wasn't really focus at that time. 

no, stop making excuses. 

I screwed it, super badly.

f. f myself. *is that even possible? lol. ok, dh start merapek. 

yes, when I'm so f-ed up, I'll curse a lot. like, everything got f-ed. at least for today.

never thought of this. lol

and I have MSE test tomorrow. best part, I haven't study. 

yes, I'm f-ed.

heat.

thermo, turbo. whatever you called it.
I think I'm starting to have 'thermophobia'.
No, not that 'fear of heat'.
Fear of thermodynamics. =.="

diagram favorite skrang nih. haha

*berkabung sat sempena terkorban test thermo td. 
eh, susah la camni. kalau 2nd test pun nk hancus, nk jd haper nih?
tukar major ah camni. tp nk major aper? bnde lain sumer pun hancus jugak.
ppffftttt.
ader 2 tests lg nih, apshal aku chill sngt? =.="




p.s: still x stop dgr OneRepublic ulang2 kali. nak pegi lg concert OneRepublic pleeaasseee. and kali ni nk duk btul2 depan stage. oh Ryan Tedder <3 :P

all fall down.

"If ever your will starts crashing down, whenever your will starts crashing down, whenever your will starts crashing down, that's where you find me."


but when my will starts crashing down, who should I find?
It's not 'all fall down', it would be just me.


heh. getting used to that.

ppfffttt.

mulut org. mmg kter x bley tutup.
and pemikiran org. kter x bley nk halang org wat spekulasi aper2.
mmg la gurau jer.


tp kalau sampai jejaskan friendship, x best la kan. 
haih.

kalau orang wat baik kt aku, aku balas balik berkali ganda baik.
kalau orang wat jahat kt aku, aku balas balik berkali ganda jahat.


it's a vicious cycle. but you forced me to do it.
so, if you want me to be a bitch, I'll be one.
if you want me to be your best-est friend, I'll be one.
I'll let you decide.


sekian.


this is a general post to anyone. 
saper yg nk wat jahat kt aku tu, pikir2 balik.
saper yg nk wat baik, you won't regret it, I promise.
orang yg btul2 kenal aku, tau ah kan pasal nih.


and again, jgn sesuka hati interpret aper yg aku tulis kt sini.
aku dh penat ngan orang yg sesuka hati rasa dia kenal aku sangat. interpret sumer bnde yg aku tulis. no, you don't. 
nk kepastian, jumper aku. jgn wat andaian sendiri. 
aku dh fed up.