I need to pull myself together now.

Damn.

That's all I can say about my performance right now.

I'm doing much worse than I thought.

Especially in chemistry. Make things worse, I'm majoring in chemical engineering.

How can I move on if my chemistry sucks?

Damn.

I think for quite a while this evening, and, gotta admit, there's a point where I was thinking, 'I can't do this. I've screwed up in this semester. I'll do better next semester'.

But then, that sounds familiar. Oh, right, I was thinking the exact same thing during last semester too!

=.="

Now I'm kinda, giving up.

The thing that prevent me from giving up is my mom&dad.

Sometimes, I'm afraid, of the responsibilities that I have on my shoulder.

The hopes of my family, my friends, and of course, the tax-payers.

Can I really do this?Can I really pull this off?

God, please, be with me.